I just sat there for what seemed like forever. My mouth was dry, and I couldn’t talk. There, sitting beside Dan, was a girl that I had never seen before. In fact, they were so close that their arms touched. They glanced at each other nervously, while I sat, speechless. At least two minutes must have passed.
“Umm.. Haylee..” Dan began, looking uncertain.
A tear rolled down my face. I shook my head. “You don’t have to tell me.” I managed to choke out.
I noticed that Dan started to look hurt. Seeing this, his new girlfriend entwined her fingers with his, making sure that I saw it. They scooted closer, and she put her head on his shoulder.
More tears streamed down my face, but I refused to make a sound. Nodding slowly, it felt as if my inner self was being ripped out of my body, and I was crumbling away from the inside out.
This was when I actually thought about suicide. I knew that I wouldn’t take it literally, but it was the first time that it had ever crossed my mind. I had too much to live for, too many lives to change with my writing. I couldn’t let those people down. I had self worth, which was what most suicidals lack.
“Hold on. Stay there.” I said. Walking into my room, I let a few more tears out, then stopped it all. Composing myself, I made it look like I wasn’t crying, and fixed my hair real quick. I pushed the jealousy way down deep inside me, and walked back into the office.
“So, how’s it going between you two?” I smiled a fake smile, but was positive it looked real.
I was overjoyed at the surprised expression on their faces. Exactly what I wanted.
“...Great…” Dan started uncertainly.
I turned my eyes on the girl. “So how are you?”
“I’m good…” She started. “Oh, I’m Sophie.”
I grinned. “Hi, Sophie. How’s your relationship? I want to know all about it.” I sounded eager, as if I was happy for them.
Dan began. “Well, I had gotten the job with The Virgin Records, and Chris and I decided to go out to a bar to get a drink or two to celebrate.”
“Oh, you got the job? See? I told you that you wouldn’t have any issues!” This was killing me.
“Yeah. Anyway, she walked up to me and sat beside us. We talked and all, and eventually I fell in love.” Dan gave her a moony look. “And that’s why I stopped texting you. I couldn’t have two girlfriends at once.”
I nodded sincerely. “Yep. That wouldn’t be right.” There’s something he’s not telling me. I could see it in his eyes.
“So how ‘bout you, Sophie? What do you like most about him?”
“Umm…” She gave a nervous laugh. “It’s so hard to decide. Probably…” She hesitated. “His personality. Oh, and his crazy hair.” She finished, ruffling Dan’s black hair.
“Yeah, his personal is great.” I grinned at both of them and started again.
“So Dan, what’s going on with Monday? Are you coming back here and taking her with you or what?” I made my tone curious.
“Ehh..” He rubbed the back of his neck nervously, like he always does. “We haven’t quite figured that out, yet.”
I looked thoughtful. “Well, one of you is going to have to move, because long-distance relationships don’t always tend to work out. I, personally, think that it would be simpler for Dan to move because it would be right near his employer. But, then again, I feel bad because he just moved in, and I’m not sure how all the finances would work out…” I trailed off, waiting for an answer.
We continued to talk, and in the end Dan, we decided, would be moving to South Carolina, and would come home Monday to get all packed and put the house up for sale. That ended the conversation, and we all said our goodbyes, while I wished them both luck.
As soon as the camera was off, I lost control of all my emotions.