We had been asking questions back and forth for about an hour. He knew that i used to do drugs and drink, that i wasn't a virgin, and that i used to be wild. I knew that he was also an only child, that he isn't a virgin, that he is straight-edge and that he was an aspiring writer.
What do you want to be when you grow up?" He asked.
"A teacher." I said sighing.
"Ahh. What kind?"
"Kindergarten. Maybe first grade?" I replied. "Whats your favourite colour?" I asked him.
"Red. Black too." He replied "My turn now, Whats your favourite animal?"
"Giraffe." I smiled.
"Hahah, what?" He laughed.
"Yes, a giraffe." I said sticking my tongue out at him.
"Ha, mines an alpaca." He said smiling and laying back onto my bed. I mimicked him.
"Whats your life story?" I asked.
"A long one." He sighed. "Next question, whats your life story."
"A longer one."
He propped himself up on his elbow, facing me. I did the same. For a moment, all we did was stare at each other. His blue eyes were setting my face on fire and i looked away.
"Cassie." He said lifting my chin with his forefinger to face him. He was really close now. He held my face like that and whispered "Your beautiful."
I scrunched my nose. He smiled and leaned in and i closed my eyes and felt his lips on my nose. When i opened them, i could feel his breath on mine.
"Do i have permission to kiss you?" He whispered.
I could only nose. As if in slow motion, our lips touched. It was amazing. My whole body felt awakened for the first time. I had kissed guys before. But they didn't make me feel like this. It was amazing. When we broke, i wanted more. But i was a different person. I was Cassie.
We just stared at each other, now further apart then before. I couldn't let him in. I would hurt him. But i wanted him so badly.
My eyes started to tear up and i turned away, my lips whispered "Gavin, you should go." But my heart screamed "Gavin, please stay."
I was torn.