Dat 36 of Echobon
It feels like I've only been here for a few days, but In reality I've been here practically forever. Being here has been a strange experience for me, but an interesting and enjoyable one. I have learnt so many things that would be impossible to explain back home. But it didn't feel like home there, it just felt like an empty hole inside of me, scratching and clawing at my stomach to find its way out.
Choosing I know is going to be difficult, but every day my feelings get stronger for Max rather than Shua. He cared for me, the way Shua did but in a very different way. He is kind and caring and well, I'm the opposite. I've spent a while wanting to stay in the place, only now do I realise just how much I would give to go home.
Max would do this for me even if I begged, because I know he was the one who said that he loved me. He is older, but his beautiful face in my eyes makes him seem like a young, playful child to me. I think if I asked him, he would want me home because he loves me. Because he wants me to be there and to be happy rather than to be here and unhappy.
I feel as dead as a donkey, and choosing I know is going to be tough for me and them, but I know who I want now.
He was there for me all along. He was kind to me when I needed him. I seemed oblivious to the fact that he loved me in the beginning. He is my friend more than my lover.
I'm going to choose Maximum Ride.
I silently walked towards Max's office, taking every step as slow as I could because fear melted through my body. I knocked three times and waiting a few seconds.
"Come in," a voice called. I opened the door and peered my head around it to see no-one, so I walked in. I closed it and stood there, staring around the empty room for him."Yes?" He asked from my right. I turned to see him walking from another door beside a large bookcase. I looked at him emptily.
"I would like to talk to you?..." A long silence filled the room for a few seconds. He sighed and walked across the room to sit down in front of his desk. I stayed where I was for I was too frightened to move.
"What about?" He asked formally. I looked at him seriously.
"I would like to go home."I breathed, closing my eyes. When I opened them his face was plain and empty.
"When?"He whispered firmly. I waited.
"You're not bothered by this atoll?" I asked.
"Why would I be?" he paused and looked down at the floor. "It's where you want to be right now, I want you to be there because you're happy there...It's not nice to be forced somewhere Sheeta. No-one likes it." I stared at him in shock.
"So, you don't mind If I go?" my voice was getting weaker by the second.
"If that's what you want." He finally looked up and his face was in pain.
"How do I get home?..."I whispered.
"Well, I think the man in the lab downstairs will be able to make something in at least 5 days...is that long enough?"We stared at eachother for a long time, too long. But we both didn't feel awkward about it. "Would you like more time?" He finally asked. I stared at him weakly, the tears welling in my eyes.
"Maybe 7 days. That gives me time to say goodbye." I croaked and slowly walked over to him. He stood up and looked at me,
"7 days." He whispered. I nodded and slowly walked out of the room, then immediately realising It wasn't long enough.