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After Emily fell a sleep David called and gave me a heads up on what happened. I got up and paced the floor back and fourth. I felt absolutely horrible, I knew I shouldn't of told her. I could of just avoided him like I do Jason. Now I have dragged Em into my world of drama, and she was the only one I had left in the world. I knew I shouldn't of fell asleep, I felt so safe with her near me. She was my sister, friend, role model, and I will make sure Jim pays for this.

I felt bad also about Tyler, I was ruining everyone's life. I sat down in my closet and rocked myself back and fourth angrily. I remember as a child hiding in my closet when Norma Jean came home in a drunken state. Oh another thing I forgot to mention, my mother use to beat the hell out of me. I have enough scars to prove all the times she threw me in to walls, or threw objects at me. I wanted to die right in that moment, and then I heard a knock at the door.When I opened the door Tyler was standing there, but his facial expression changed when he saw mine.

"Can I come in," he asks me. I don't say a word instead just hold the door open for him to come in. I close the door behind me and he follows me to the living room, only this time he sits in the chair.

"I cam to say I'm sorry about earlier," he sighed. Then he continued, "I'm the one who should of known better, and I feel really bad about walking out on you." I was just silent and he went on," Look Jessica I think your a great girl, but I'm a married man." I still didn't say one word, I just starred into space.

"Jessica, did you hear what I said," he repeated.

"Maybe things would be better if I was dead," I screamed. I got up and ran into my room, Tyler followed behind me stopping the door before I could slam it. I just gave up my efforts of closing the door and laid on the bed. He sat down next to me,"What is going on?" he whispered as he whisked the hair from my face.

I told him what had happened with Jim. First what he had done to me, then what he had done to Em. He took a deep breath and cupped my hand in his.

"I have friends on the force, maybe I can talk them into paying Jim an unofficial visit," he said in an angry tone.

"Really?" I asked shooting up into a sitting position.

"Yes, don't you worry about him bothering either one of you ever again," his tone confident. That made me feel better, but I still had a mess of things swirling in my head.

"I'm sorry I kissed you, I'm a flirt when I'm drunk," I apologized. I was so lonely I just wanted him to hold me in his arms, I wanted to feel wanted. I just put my head down waiting for his reaction to my apology.

"I'm not sorry you kissed me, I'm just sorry I'm married," he smiled. " Your a very attractive young lady, and it's taking everything in my power to hold myself back from doing it again," he says to me. It makes me smile, and I grabbed a tissue from the night stand to wipe my tears.

"Bedside's, I'm old enough to be your father, you should find a nice young man," he teased. He might be older, but he was still hot and I still would of ripped his clothes off if he let me.

"I really thought you would of came down to the store for a job," he admits. I bite my lip deciding whether or not to tell him about his wife. I guess he could tell I had something I wanted to tell him because he asked, "What is it?"

I told him about running into Helen in town, and her telling me about his nephew. "I should of known," he scoffed. "That women is so jealous, when she is the one who had the affair," he spat. I just looked at him with a surprised look on my face, I wasn't sure he meant for that to come out.

"I didn't mean to...I... it's just I have nobody to vent to," he hesitated. I wanted to be there for him just as he had been for me, but I was afraid it would lead to other things.

"So where is she know?" I asked.

"We got into an argument and she took the boys to a hotel in town," he confessed.

"Ouch!" I sighed.

"It's been happening a lot since we moved here," he admitted. "She is use to being in the country with all he stuck up friends and family," he added. He also went on to say that she almost didn't come with him, but they did it for the boys. They had been rocky ever since Helen had an affair with their old neighbor. They tried to keep it cordial for the boys sake, and planned on waiting until they were older. He admitted he wasn't happy, but it had to be done.

I felt bad for him, and I hated seeing him miserable like that. His wife was gone for the night, Em was gone for the night, and I didn't want to be alone.

"Will you lay with me," I asked and can't believe I had. "I promise to keep my hands off, I just don't want to be alone right now," I pouted. He looked at me and sighed, I could tell he was nervous about it.

"Sure, why not," he replied. We both laid down in the bed, and and I exhaled deeply.

When Em got home I would tell her the good new about Jim, I know that wouldn't take back what he had done to her. At least she could feel safe enough to leave the house.

I scooted up close to Tyler and closed my eyes. When I opened my eyes again it was almost morning, and Tyler was gone. So I just went back to sleep until Emily came home.

The End

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