I stood shivering, I new my eyes were wide and pebble like staring at the scene before me, I was trying to connect my brain to my body, to realise the gravity of what had happened, but there was still nothing.
I could feel two hands grabbing at my shoulders pulling me back, trying to make me look away. But I just stood stone like, a gargoyle unable to look away.
Silence scolded my ears, it was deffening. I wanted to look away, but the pale skin, the staring eyes it was all so.... bewitching. I was stuck watching them. They were shadows of people, the left over shells of had been's.
"Don't worry, come on." whispered a low voice I didn't recognise, I shuck my head, I was guilty. Guilt tainted my hands red. No one could say that it wasn't my fault, I was the only survivor. It looked odd, it looked guilt-ridden. I stood there, my trousers and shoes sodden with cold water. My hands were pale, almost bloodless, yet I saw red hot patches of blood all over them.
One more strong pull on my shoulders sent me backwards, I scrambled on the dirt and mud. The hands guided me to a police car. I looked into the brown eyes which faced me, but reflected in them all I could see the lake, the patches of broken ice, underneath the murky waters seeping over the ice. I saw accusation, misunderstanding, devastation. I saw it all and it burned.
"Can you tell me your name."
"Eliza." My lips moved, no sound.
"Ok, Eliza did you say?"
"Can you tell me what happened." The voice was low, soothing, though still pushy. It wanted answers.
I closed my eyes, wishing for tears. Salty tears to clense, but none would come. I shuck my head.
"We're going to take you back into town, ok?"
I sat back against the seat, worried about leaving a water mark. The material felt safe and secure. I shut my eyes against the world and began to breath slowly.
As we headed into town, I felt as though I was heading towards disaster. What more could go wrong, you might think, disgust from my parents, being thrown out of school, being blamed. I couldn't take any more guilt.