Death wasn't ever something I seriously ever thought about. Of course, I'd just wish it upon myself whenever the moment came where I couldn't take my own struggles anymore. Now it was like I had to deal with whatever happens. Darek came back into the room with the bag with the laptop in. He seemed rather stressed and exhausted.
“They said that you shouldn't sit up, though.” He said after a couple moments of awkward silence.
“I'm not going to. Bring it here.”
He did as I wanted and took it out and carefully handed it to me. The weight of it made the pain a bit worse, but I managed to deal with it somehow. Running my hand along the top of it, I remembered when I'd first came into contact with that program. I wondered where it was now. Now that I could think a bit clearer, I thought deeply of what I should do. My few options were becoming less obvious by the minute. It took me a few minutes to change several things around. I then lifted it slowly and held it out to him, my eyes looking into his.
“Take care of it, okay?” I asked, hoping he'd accept.
“What, you mean the computer?”
“Yeah. It means a lot to me. I feel that I can trust you with something that held a part of my life within it. Even though I'm not the same person I was when I relied on it, I don't regret it at all. I wouldn't have met you in that case.”
“I'm not sure what to say.” He seemed to be struggling to find the words.
“You never told me what OpalSnow meant.” I said, trying to change the subject.
“Um, well...It's kind of lame.”
“You don't have to say, then.”
“It's the name I came up with when I joined the forum I met you on. I just got used to it after a while. I only kept the same name on the messenger because meeting you was probably one of first good memories I had ever since I came back here. I remember that it was sometime in October and that it had been snowing. Lame, right?”
“Nah, not at all. Thanks for telling me.” I smiled faintly.
“On the other hand, BlackSky is pretty obvious.” He returned the gesture.
“I didn't choose that name in order for it to be subtle.”
He was about to reply, but my vision got dark suddenly for a few moments and I couldn't see clearly after that. The pain slowly became worse and I found that I couldn't push it away anymore. It hurt with every breath I took.
“Hey, can you hear me? Say something. Please.” Darek sounded desperate.
“I have to tell you something.” My words came out in pieces because of my painful ordeal.
“Okay. Thanks. I want you to know that I'm really glad I met you.” I smiled through the pain somehow.
“Don't talk like that. It sounds like you're going to leave or something.”
“Let's not worry about that, alright? It's funny, you know? I feel like I'm awake now, somehow.”
“I feel the same way. I haven't been able to fully let go of my past, but now I can at least not let it hinder my life any further.”
“Good, I'm glad to hear that.”
We were both quiet during the time the fallowed. My struggle became more apparent and darkness was once again in the corners of my eyes. His hand had found mine and I could at least tell that he was holding on rather tight. I glanced at the darkness outside the window and I soon saw more of it fill my vision. It was pretty obvious what was happening. I didn't want to leave this soon in my life, but I had truly fought with the all the strength I had left. With my final breaths drawing near, I managed to say one last thing before everything went dark.
“Thank you. For everything.”