“Calum, do you need to talk about something?” I asked. I hated being compassionate, caring or even kind anymore. I don’t know what it was. Being a Time Jumper sometimes made people kinder towards others. In my case; though, it had turned me into a psychopathic, cold hearted bitch.
Calum whipped around. He hadn’t sensed me behind him. Not his fault. I had jumped there. He put his hands on his head and sighed. I couldn’t help but stare at his toned arms.
I forced myself to look away.
“Look, Calum, I know I’m not someone you probably want to talk to- I don’t blame you. Everything about me is a mess.” I shook my head and gestured to him, “I turned you into a mess.” Calum was the one to shake his head now. He studied me with his brown, enchanting eyes.
“Elly, you didn’t turn me into a mess. You helped me sort out the mess that was already inside of me. I never thanked you for all you did for me that day that you took me back.” He moved his hands from his head onto my shoulders. I stiffened. Why was he touching me? I thought we had made it clear that I did not want to be touched because everyone I get too close to ends up either getting hurt or hurting me.
I didn’t move though. Did I want Calum to feel more comfortable? I don’t know; if anything he probably felt a lot more uncomfortable because it wasn’t something I would usually do.
“Uh….” I had nothing else to say. His eyes crinkled, showing that his smile met his eyes and was true. “I know something is up, Calum, I wouldn’t still be standing here if I knew that nothing was wrong. You need to tell me. I’m like your-”
“Like my what?” I had caught his attention with that. But I didn’t exactly know myself. Was I like his sister or something a little bit more? I shook my head.
“I honestly don’t know.”
His hands tightened on my shoulders and I closed my eyes. When I opened them again I was in my room. I heard a sigh from down the hall where I was a few seconds ago. I put my ear to the wall and heard Calum sigh again.
“There’s two things I really want to tell you, Elodie, but I don’t know which one you’ll freak out over.”
With that I heard his footsteps as he walked away quickly. Whether or not he knew that I had heard him, I wasn’t sure. I swallowed and Jumped back in time.
“Elly, you didn’t turn me into a mess-
“Shut up.” That did the trick. He froze and I smiled at him. “Tell me both of your secrets that I know you want to tell me. Trust me, I won’t freak out.”
“How do you know I have two things I really want to tell you?” He whispered suspiciously. I froze.
“Dude… I can see the wheels turning in your head. Then they stop. Then they start again. You can practically hear them whirring.” He nodded wearily.
“Well, you’re right.”
“Hell yeah, I’m right. I’m almost always right.”
“Yeah you kind of are.” He admitted.
“Yeah,” I said.
“Yeah,” He bit his lip.
“So?” I prodded.
“The first thing is… I’ve been having dreams about a girl.”
Why did my heart suddenly drop? Why did I suddenly feel let down?
“Like Time Jumper dreams? Or the fantasies that guys get sometimes when they-
“Jesus Elodie, she was reaching out telling me to come and find her and nothing else happened. Ok? Nothing weird…”
I blinked. I nodded. I blinked again.
“And the second thing?” I asked. He looked away from me and shook his head wistfully. “Hey, don’t leave me hanging, Calum, you promised.”
“I never promised anything.” He argued.
“Spit it out or I swear, I will-
“I think I’m in love with you.”
Silence filled the hallway. I was in shock. Calum looked everywhere except my eyes. I stepped back; and understood why he wouldn’t look- my eyes were wide. What was this funny feeling I was having? It was like someone had tipped happiness, joy and dread into a bucket and injected it into my system.
“What?” I hissed. Calum’s eyes turned glassy and I closed my eyes.
The first time I was in this situation, I asked Calum if he needed to tell me something. Now that I knew what it was, I wasn’t going to ask again. Calum took his time in the hallway, making his way to his room which was so conveniently three doors down from mine.
I watched him and I knew that he had no idea that I was right there behind him. And so I ran up behind him quietly. I jumped back about a minute and returned right in front of him. I pushed him against the wall and kissed him hard.
I wasn’t surprised by the response that I got from him. He kissed me back of course and I was probable wrongly using my knowledge as power here. I pulled away from Calum.
“We need to talk.”
And with that I jumped back to the present.
“How many times have we had this conversation?” Calum asked me. I sighed. I couldn’t lie to him now.
“Well, the first time you didn’t tell me anything. The second time I forced it out of you and as soon as you told me…. I jumped back one more time and…” An embarrassed smile spread across my face.
That was strange. I didn’t usually get embarrassed.
“I don’t know what to do about the girl. I keep seeing her whenever I close my eyes. At first, back in Michigan, it was only a couple of times and I thought maybe she went to our school and was just popping up in my dreams. Then as soon as we moved here I was hit with her face and her voice and it barely ever goes away. I don’t know what to do, Elly.” He said softly.
I crossed my arms.
“Stone or Caspar would know a lot more than I do. But I do know that the dreaming thing is a Time Ender/Jumper kind of thing. I might have had them I don’t really remember. Stone found me, remember?”
“So, do you have to be related?” Calum asked me. I sighed.
“I’m not too sure now. I thought…. Honestly, I don’t even know what I thought.” I scratched my nose. “I used to think that Jumpers had to be related and Enders just had a connection with someone. We should go talk to Caspar and Stone. You know that they’d have some sort of explanation for this.”
Calum nodded again. I smiled brightly at him but my heart just wasn’t in it. Calum frowned.
“Elly, can I ask you something?” He asked me.
“Of course you can. Dude, you can ask/tell me anything. You know that, right?” I said.
“Elodie, I need you to be one hundred percent honest with me.”
There it was. He said Elodie, not Elly which means he was definitely being serious. What was it though? I licked my lips and glanced around the darkening hallway. I bowed my head forward slightly.
“Did you mean it?” He asked me. I must have looked confused because he looked at me with disappointment before continuing. “When you kissed me, Elodie, did you mean it?”
I stared into his glassy eyes without saying anything. He paced in front of me and then slapped the wall with his right hand.
“God damn, Elodie; answer the question.” He growled in a low voice. I shrunk back against the wall. What little light which brightened up the room shone on his face, contouring his face. His brown eyes turned darker than they ever had before and I opened my mouth to say something. He waited.
For once I was dumbfounded. I felt blind that I couldn’t see this coming. Should I lie? But then again, I didn’t know which answer would be the lie and which would be the truth. I felt something for Calum, that much was true; but I hadn’t figured out what that was yet.
Why couldn’t I just tell him that?
“Did you mean it?” He hissed. His hands shook.
“You know what?” He asked shakily. He backed away from me and gritted his teeth. His hands were balled into fists. I didn’t say anything because for once, Calum had me speechless and I couldn’t even force myself to speak.
“Next time, don’t bother kissing me. Just stab me in the chest because it gets the job done quicker.”