Replay

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Why do I keep on clicking that button again and again?

Why do I still choose to listen to our song though it hurts me deep inside?

Though it brings back bitter sweet memories?

This used to be a happy song.. our song… yet we chose to end it this way…

 

“What if I fell in love with you Jess? Just what if?”

“Yuck! That’s gross Crissy!”

A roar of laughter echoed throughout the hallway after that playful exchange of words of the two girls. “Coincidentally”, a rather silent girl tried passing by the group looking unfazed. After walking farther from the group of people, though not far enough not to hear their boisterous laughter and teasing remarks, the girl hurriedly picked up her phone and dialed a number.

“We have to talk…”

Four simple words yet carrying with it the gravity of the situation.

 

“They found out…” The blond girl faced her companion for a second before looking down. The tan skinned girl merely nodded on the statement. A sad nod as an answer. Not a shocked face, nor silent tears flowing. A simple nod. A defeated nod denoting the apparent hopeless acceptance of their fate.

No more questions are needed to be asked. No more “how’s?” no more “from whom?”. For those questions no longer matter. For what is important is the inevitable consequence of the words “They found out”.

 

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Right after that day… things never became the same again… It was never the same… For though there were no words uttered… a silent agreement has been reached… we… are no longer a “we”…

Months have passed yet my heart still can’t seem to comprehend…

to accept reality…

to see what should be seen…

For here I am still…

listening to our song…

though every sentence… every word… causes the flow of happy memories that continually stabs my already tattered heart…

But why do I still do it?

Hmmm…

They say that human beings are Masochists… We tend to stay with the pain… We tend love and embrace the pain… Well… Maybe it is true… Maybe human beings are Masochists… And I am a perfect example…

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The End

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