What happened?Mature

What happened? This happened.
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
Because. I don't want to exist and everyone hates me. Elly is going to yell at me and so will her sister, and Lacey is going to glare at me and scream and I'll just sit there nonchantly crying because NO ONE CARES WHAT I WANT
It's simple.
If I don't exist, I don't have to deal with people.

2:22pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
Well i care
and i love you
don't hate you

2:23pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
So?

2:23pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
So shhh

2:23pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
Nah.

2:24pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
Plz baby?

2:24pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
Nah.
I'm kinda done
With everything
I'll go home and pretend to be fine
Wake up put a smile on my face
And go through every day like usual
But I'll be dead inside
And no one will know.

2:27pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
Lies
Cause i do

2:27pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
So?

2:27pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
Baby just smile for me

2:28pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
Nah.
Cause you can't see it
It's not to be a real smile anyways
It doesn't even matter.

2:29pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
It matters to me knowing you feel this way

2:29pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
Why?

2:32pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
Because i love you to fucking pieces

2:32pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
WHy?
Why?*

2:35pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
Because you're beautiful, smart, your smile is amazing
i love you
you love me more than anyone before you

2:36pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
So?
You'd all be fine.

2:38pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
Doubtful

2:39pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
You would.

2:43pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
I would
Maybe
after ages of blaming myself

2:44pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
Why blame yourself?

2:44pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
Cause i'm meant to be here to fix you

2:45pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
And what if I tell you you can't?

2:47pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
I'll refuse to listen

2:47pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
Why?

2:49pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
cause

2:49pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
You can't fix or save everyone Cian. Don't be so determined that one day or possibly tonight I won't just fuck off and not talk to anyone, I could easily just be gone.Don't be so fucking determined that you can help me because I'll straight up walk away. I'll stay off of facebook, and I'd be gone. You wouldn't know a thing.

2:52pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
I know people who know you in person, they'd tell me-.
you're an idiot sometimes, you know that?

2:52pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
Yeah, well.

3:09pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
They wouldn't tell you because they wouldn't know either.

3:48pm
Cian Jonathan SantosGil Carpano
Sure.
sorry i disappeared
packing fucking boxes -.-

3:48pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
It's fine. I tried to feel better but ended up having Justin scream at me Bobbie tell me my only issue is my social life and Josh won't talk to me.

3:54pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
"Do youy mean you're sorry?"
"Mo."
well we know how tonight's going to go.
No*

This happened;
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
Know what's nice? Alcohol. Alcohol is nice. Even if my head is pounding, and hurts. Even though I won't rember anything later. Retty sure I've a few typos. Oh well. Anyways... I miss you. And I hate that. It's such a miserable feeling, and I feel empty and
hollow without you. It SUCKS. I really wish you were here, or I there. ): I miss and love you.
February 8

11:26pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
Fucking fucking fucks, *Sigh* I thought about this for awhile, and um.. I... Fuck, um, alright. You're in Wales, and I'm in this bullshit over here, and not that it's a problem (though it kind of is, the distance and all) and the twits that never shut up about it, I um.. *sigh* We need a small break. Give you a chance to find a girl within your vicinity. I've no idea when you'll see this, but I'm so so sorry, but I just.. *Sigh* God, urg, I dunno what I'm doing. But.. We need a small break. *Shakes head* I love you. So don't worry, okay? Just for a bit, alright? Just.. Just for awhile. Fuck what's wrong with me? :C Serious though. Small break. ;~;
February 12

10:22pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
Cian, I straight up give up on us. You've lied to me, you've hurt me, but most of all you broke my heart. Twice. You're not going to fix it this time. You told Leo that you said you were with me so I wouldn't kill myself, and you said you loved Dessie so she wouldn't kill herself. It doesn't work that way. You can't save everyone the way they NEED or WANT to be saved, you saved them the right way, not by lying. But I'm okay, thanks to you. But we aren't. Cian I don't know what to believe. I love you, and everybody tells me you love me, but honestly with all of that and Leo still around? What am I supposed to do? We're done, and I don't think there is a way to fix it. Don't worry, I'll always be around to be your best friend, anything. I still love you. But Some things have to change, and they definitely won't on their own. I miss you a lot, though. I think about you every day. But I'm here. But what matters is you, you have to keep your promises to me, okay? I love you.

This happened;
Vortex Aren: I know that he's moved and can't get any internet as of this moment. *shakes head* It's unfortunate. I decided it'd be best if he searched for a girl more in his area, but if you'd like a go at him.. I don't really care. But in all honesty he's a liar and he WILL hurt you. I'm not saying that so you'll shove off, I'm just warning you to be prepared. Honestly, I love him, but he needs a girl closer to him, not some crazy girl he hasn't known that long that lives in some other country. Knowing this, and that I'd do anything for him, hurts. Honestly. But he's asked for too much, and I can't bear to become the apple of his disappointment anymore. I can't be that girl that he's with only so she won't kill herself. I can't be that burden. 17:15
Vortex Aren: I just wish that he could have been closer, or maybe talked more. I also wish we'd talked more, discussed everything. But we didn't. More so, HE didn't. It isn't fair that he keeps to himself and makes everyone else open up, and it isn't fair that he feels so down about himself. He's brilliant, actually. But he needs to know that he can't save everyone the way he wants or feels the need to. They need to be saved properly, not with lies. 17:17
Vortex Aren: I just wish things could have been different. But they weren't, and aren't. And there's really no point in it. But he needs to know that nothing's really changed. Except him. He changed.

This happened;
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
*shrug* I don't have much to live for, these days. Elly is about it.

8:04pm
Justin Fox
YOU HAVE ME

8:04pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
And if I do go past sixteen, it'll be for her.

8:04pm
Justin Fox
YOU ASS
D:<

8:04pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
I do.

8:04pm
Justin Fox
;~:
I will love you more than anyone else
ever

8:04pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
But you're not the won I have fought for for a year. The one I have consoled almost every night. The one I spoke to when we were both in tears, the one I convinced that everything will be okay.

8:05pm
Justin Fox
why
I
can't
even

8:06pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
I hate that. I hate what I did. We both know it really won't be okay. I hate that I can't do anything with my words for her, there just isn't enough.

8:09pm
Justin Fox
just
Im trying man
Im trying to be there for you
when ever

8:11pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
And you are.

8:14pm
Justin Fox
then why not let me be there for you
every day

8:15pm
Wyntre Godibhe MacBryghde
Because some days I need to not be strong enough, and have it at that. And some days I just need to do things on my own.

The End

0 comments about this story Feed