All my tears for my friends, for myself and for Robert poured out of me as I wrote the hardest letter out of all of them. It was to my closest friend, Heidi. I had confided everything in her since year seven, I was so close to her that to be apart for even a weekend was torturing. This letter I can say because I think Heidi would want me to.
I'm so sorry for this, I truly am. But I can't go back now, I don't want to. But I would give anything to have a few more years with you. you have got me through so much. Whenever my head felt like it was about to explode, I would picture your face, get up and go to school. You are the one who has kept me going this long, the reason I am a medical miracle. So thank you.
You can never know how much you mean to me, words simply cannot describe it. But I can tell you now that it was a lot. You are my best friend and I could have asked for no better.
Heidi, I will miss you so much, you have no idea how hard this is for me. I am sorry for what I have put you through.
But I am dead and buried now, Heidi.
You must promise me to visit my grave because, even in death, I do not think I can let go.
Forever you friend, Alli.'