Everyday, I was lonely, without Eglantine, my life had no meaning. I would pass by the park everyday for school, I would stare at the bench we met at for a long time, so long that I would be way late for school. I didn't even pay attention to the bullies, all I could think about was her. Even though we had only known each other for a short time, I knew that I cared deeply about her, you could even say that I possibly loved her.
It hurt me to know that she died the same way that my mother died, the pain was the same, I was right there and I wish, oh how I wish I could have saved her. But I didn't, if I could go back in time and save her, I would. I needed her here, she helped me through the day.
I didn't know what I would do anymore without her, the pain was so intense.
Everyday after school, I would run over and visit her grave, telling her about my day and about how much I missed her. Each day, I missed her a little bit more. I would have dreams at night about seeing her again, about saving her.
I would stay at her grave until late at night, sometimes I would fall asleep on the freezing cold ground beside her grave.
I couldn't let this girl go, I thought about her day and night. There was an endless pain in my heart. Sometimes, I could here her voice, calling out my name. Maybe, it was just me going crazy.
I don't know what this girl did to me.
Soon, I couldn't take it anymore, every day my heart would break a little more. I would now cry constantly over Eglantine. I would cut myself when my Aunt and Uncle left me unattended, crying my eyes out while doing so.
My Aunt and Uncle were at work, I was at home 'sick'. I couldn't take it anymore, I took a knife and went outside, the snow falling all around me. It was beautiful outside, I smiled one last time.
I lay down on the snow, making myself comfortable underneath a tree. I sighed, closing my eyes and thinking about her while I made slits in my wrists. I lay back and watched the snow fall around me as it all faded to black.
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