Who can say if I’ve been changed for the better?
We all know what happened earlier.
I saw it, the invisible thread breaking
Difficulty slams down like a boulder tumbling to the road
Explosions hits my ears faster than the waves crashing in a hurricane
Bombs set off and my heart is the main target
You stepped on the trigger, the red cord
Violent storms rage inside my anger
Hazy smoke clouds my fantasized thoughts
Don’t give me that innocent look.
You know exactly what you did,
And you can’t ever fix it.
Look where we are at now.
I’m a seed that fell far from the tree,
And you’re the animal that picked me up.
I thought I loved you, forever and always,
But I suppose not.
You can’t love someone who’s always disappointing you.
My cold fingers reach up to my necklace
And I remember you. Who you were.
My best friend. The one I could count on.
This harmony, it transformed to just plain off-key
The music notes got scrambled on the sheet
Lines jumble together, not clear
I feel hallow inside,
When I don’t say goodnight
The bells chimed,
And that’s when I knew.
I never loved you,
Never cared about you.
People come into our lives for a reason
And you were just an excuse, not the real thing.
We’re not the same. I can’t believe how stupid I’ve been,
To stay with you. I should’ve left years ago,
Or never start being friends with you.
However tempting these goodbyes are,
I know I could never go through with them.
There’s a time and place for it, and that’s not for a while.
I guess you’ll just have to wait, dear.
Just wait until graduation, and you’ll know.