TryingMature

You will never know
How I'm really feeling when
You are around me.

I close myself up;
Shut my eyes and breathe in deep
So I'm calm, you see.

Inside I'm dying
But you just think I am fine
My outside's lying.

Smiling laughing and
Joining in but I am not
Really here with you

Missing people or
Hurting about something. You
Do not know I'm blue. 

Inside I'm dying
But you just think I'm fine
My outside's lying.

Walking home I text;
I'm lonely, needing someone
But in texts I smile.

Unaware you text
That you're busy, can't talk
For an hour, a while.

Inside I'm dying
But you think I'm fine

My outside's lying.

Across the room, I
Wave, you say hello but I
Am just goodbying.

And sometimes now I
Cry. You think I'm fine though as
I am still smiling.

My emotions fade
But the smile on my face says
I am still trying.

Inside I'm dying.
Confused, failing, I'm crying.
You think I'm lying,

When I am sighing
Saying dry eyes are crying
And you are whying

Because I am scared
But you don't know all of this
Because I'm still trying. 

The End

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