I haven't drunk in ever so long
Remembering feeling ever so wrong
Thinking that I didn't belong
Knowing I lead you all along
I haven't drunk in such a long time
Finding it hard to think up a rhyme
Drinking your sorrows, that's not a crime
Yet even during I didn't feel fine.
I haven't drunk in under a year
Life has not been any more clear
Not even had a bottle of beer
Still fully taken by my own fear
I haven't drunk but I know it's there
On the shelf, under the stairs
Calling me to, if I dare
Take something. I'm fully aware.
I haven't drunk, or thought of it
In my life it didn't fit
But now I fall back in this pit
Wondering, just a bit?
I haven't drunk in quite a while
That girl at school, she was quite vile
No problem? She's in denial.
Trying to force up some bile.
I haven't drunk, but I may do.
It didn't help, maybe that's true
To forget, to get me through.
And though my feelings are nothing new,
I've got to try, you agree, don't you?