Disclaimer- This is not a personal story it's a character and a work of fiction.
I'm staring at the paper and I can't think. It's amazing that there are 26 letters in the alphabet and I can't find a way to arrange them to make anything logical. I just lay here all night, the doctor said this would help. Said it would help me stop thinking about it. But it's so interesting, so, so, beautiful. I love how red it is, how warm it is, how slowly it drips... I want it, but I'm not supposed to have it. They say it's wrong, they say I can't have it because it hurts people. But it's so worth it. I love it...I love the blood.