i can feel the darkness seeping under my skin,
the silence a deafening thunder in my ears.
i can feel the cold water chilling my bones,
these things in my head throw me overboard.
with a heart this heavy,
like a three-ton anchor in my chest.
how do i use the stars to guide me,
when their light to me no longer exists?
how do i keep afloat this life that i no longer want to live,
with the ghosts of shipwrecks,
try to drag me down?
i guess i'll keep swimming,
just keep on living,
bobbing on the waves,
takking it day by day in this open sea,
deep blue sea,
and hope i drift across some big fish in some small way.