I looked back up at Lune. "You forgive me right? For falling in love again?"
"I was dead, all I want is for you to be happy, I forgive you," he smiled. He shuffled closer to me on the sofa and put his arms around me, kissing my forehead softly.
I put my arms around his warm, surreally solid body. I buried my face in his shoulder.
"I don't know what to do," I murmured. The words seemed fake to me, as if I didn't need to do anything: because surely everything was okay in the comfort and love of Lune's embrace?
He rubbed my back comfortingly, "I love you and I want you to love me back. But," he paused for a moment and held me arms length away from him, "I want you to be happy too."
"That's the thing. I can't be completely happy with either of you. I love you both and when I've decided both my heart and the heart of the one I didn't choose will break."
He paused, his face falling slightly, "but, he has death. And he could never completely be with you."
"I don't think he does have Death. He wants to be with me too. Even if he didn't, my heart would still break from ending things with him."
"Corelle...you know I would do anything for you, if you want me to go... I will," he murmured, letting his arms fall away from me and to his sides.
"Oh, Lune," I said, leaning back and letting go with one hand so I could stroke his face. "I don't want you to go."
"And I don't want to be without you!" he cried, looking straight into my eyes and whimpering.
His words were utterly heart-rending. "Make it difficult," I said, looking straight in his eyes. Then despair broke into my tone. "Make it impossible for me to choose Mune!"
"I can't! He's a god! He's so much better than me, how can I compare to what he can give you?!"
"You know you can make me choose you, Lune! You were always going on about how I'm your soul mate! Break my heart and then kiss me till I'm yours!"
"I don't want to break your heart; I want to love you for eternity. But, do I have your heart completely?"
"That's why you have to break it first, Lune. I'm sorry - I'm not making sense. You have to hurt me so I can see how awful I'm being for not loving you totally. And you would have it completely if you made me want to forget about Mune."
"You know, I can't do this, I can't compete with Mune. I love you but... I can't..."
I looked straight into his eyes. "Tell me you won't try. Look me in the eye and tell me you wouldn't try everything you could to gain my heart. Tell me, Lune!"
"I don't think I can be with you anymore, I can't fight like this. I'm sorry." He stood up. His attitude was devastating.
"Lune, No!" I cried. I stood up and held him tightly. I leant up and kissed him, fiercely but lovingly. My arms wound tightly around his neck and I kissed him like there was no tomorrow.
He looked away, "Corelle..."
"Don't you want me?" I asked, crying. "Don't you love me?"
"I love you so much, my heart feels like it's intertwined with yours. Like, everything I do is for you, I want to hold you close and take you like I used to do. I want to whisper in your ear that everything is okay," he sighed and used one hand to pull me close, the other to wipe away my tears, "I want to protect you from everything."
"Take me, then," I whispered. I held his beautiful blue eyes which were so full of pain at the moment. "All I've done with Mune is kiss him. Tell me everything's okay. Protect me from everything. Let's pretend that Mune never happened.
"Your death was the single worst event in my life. I wanted to end my life to be with you, I felt guilty about ever having a good time when you weren't there. I used to sit up late at night and cry. Anything which reminded me of you would cause me to burst into tears. I missed you so much and never stopped loving you."
He put a finger to my lips and hushed me, then he removed his finger, kissing me ever so softly. "There's no need to cry, I'm here for you now. It's okay," he kissed me again, more passionately this time.
I returned the kiss, giving as much as I was receiving. Tonight, at the gathering, I would have to break the news to Mune. But for now I didn't care about that. For now I just wanted to love Lune.
He linked his hand in the small of my back, but as he looked me up and down he pulled back, "you have cat paws for feet... and ears!"
I grinned. "Yeah! ..." I shut up, remembering it was Mune who had given me them. I kissed him to clear my thoughts before pulling back and saying "Does it make me look more attractive?"
"Hmm, you do look cuter," he smiled, running a hand through my hair, stroking my ears gently.
I purred involuntarily. "Whoops!" I said, covering my mouth.
He laughed, kissing me softly, "I think I'm gonna have to remember that," he murmured, scratching behind my ears.
"Oh dear," I replied jokingly. "Now you have something to blackmail me with."
"I'd never blackmail you," he whispered, kissing me again as his hand slid down to my backside, where he played with my tail with a grin, "I think it's really cute."
I blushed. "Thanks. I've always thought you were really good-looking." I chuckled as the way he was caressing my tail tickled.
"Thanks," he grinned, "God, I've missed you."
I looked at him strangely. "When was the last time you saw me? Surely only a minute ago if Mune brought you forward from a time before ... 'that day'. I remember we never used to be apart for more than two minutes."
"Well, I was in a car then... everything went black, i felt as if I was floating... or falling. It seemed like an eternity without you. Then I was here."
I stared at him. I swallowed hard. "A ... a car?" I whispered.
"Y-yeah, what's wrong?"
For a minute I couldn't answer. Then I finally whispered "You died in a car accident."
"Could it have been... that car? I-I," he stuttered, not knowing what to say.
"I don't know," I whispered. "You never blacked out in a car before."
"Were you... in the car with me?" He choked.
"N-no," I stammered. "My parents were taking me to the theatre so you had to go home on your own. Oh gosh, I felt so terrible when I found out.... Wishing I /had/ been there so that I could've helped you... or even took your place."
"No," he shook his head and pulled me close against his chest, "never."
"You'd have wished the same, had it b-been the other way around," I told him, trying to suppress my tears.
"No, because I'd never let you come to such harm," he whispered, kissing my forehead, just between my ears.
The tears came. "But that sounds as if I let you die!"
"No, no!" He shook his head, "no! This was none of your fault, if anything you've saved me!"
"I might have saved you but that doesn't change the fact that if I hadn't, you'd still be dead."
"But its not like that, so let's forget it. Let's look forward to the gathering, or... something," he smiled.
"You've got to promise me something before we do anything," I told him.
"You will never, ever leave me again. Not even for a second. You will stay by my side forever and love me so much so that your heart is always close to exploding."
"My heart is yours."
"Then promise you won't leave."
"I promise, with my whole being, I promise."
I kissed him. "And I promise to never leave you."