Ok so I have a slight problem. Because no matter what I said to Sam, I really did enjoy her touching me like that. But I was absoloutely sure Jay was the one for me.
I need some air. Outside, the sun is shining, and I feel slightly lifted, without even realising it I arrive at the secret tree Jay and I had sat at yesterday.
I lay down and considered the inside of my brain and heart. The feelings I feel now are confusing. I never thought I would feel like this.
Before long I have drifted off to sleep, under the tree andfree to dream quietly about the two people who have my heart bouncing around like a tennis ball.