The event that really changed my mind happened that very same night.
What I remember of it is slightly patchy, so you'll have to fill in some of the details yourselves, I'm afraid. But I'm sure you'll manage.
I was lying on bed, staring up at the ceiling. I can't remember exactly what time it was, but it must have been gone midnight. I'd been up for hours, tossing and turning, but for some reason I couldn't sleep. It must have been this trouble with my father, but I can't exactly remember what I was thinking about.
I must have fallen asleep around 1:30, because I had a dream. No, it wasn't a dream. It was a vision.
Yes, that makes me sound completely mad, but bear with me. It genuinely was a vision. And what was it of? The future. I know. I've lived through it.
Although I can't remember much of the reality, I can picture my dream exactly.
There's a lady, dressed in what I now know to be a Greek dress, but what I thought then looked like a pillowcase. She had long brown curly hair with some kind of golden diadem on her head and a lute in her hands. She was playing music - what music! It was the music of the dreamworld - soft and sweet as honey.
And I move towards her-
And I reach out my hand-
And she turns slightly-
And I realise she's my mother.
And then I'm above the scene-
And I'm flying-
And I don't have wings -
And I'm in some kind of chariot-
And someone's beside me-
But I can't see who it is-
But I don't need to.
I just know - it's my father.
And we are in the chariot of the gods.
We are the sun.