The biggest mistakeMature

-Lucas-

I'm dreaming again...

About him. Why him of all people?

I don't know why my mind thinks of the first love I had in my life... The biggest mistake I had ever made...

Joshua Williams.

Kids alway liked to pick on me. Before it was about my sexuality, it was because of my height (I'm barely five feet.) or my hair color which used to be more red than it is since I became a teen. It darkened over the years but still reddens in the summer. I still do have a few freckles though.

Didn't help I was wimpy, didn't like sports and was kind of a geek before it was cool...

The first time I met the guy was in sixth grade. Unlike my sisters, I wasn't in private school. When they finished grade school, they all decided to move to private schools but I later declined every years. I didn't want to lose my friends.

The incident that made us friends was at one of the lunch break. I was shy, extremely so and I couldn't figure out where to sit on the first day of school. I remember so guy bumping into me, sending my lunch platter on the ground and him pushed me for being in the way...

At that time, I was just petrified. I barely managed to mutter an excuse but he kept on agressing me. A good chunk of the school was watching us at the time and that made me even more cowed.

Finally after a minute, a blond giant (Atleast to me) Came between the two of us and shooed the prick that was bullying me. He turned to me and asked "Are you okay kid?"

He was the same age as me, but despite being one of the oldest in the class, I looked young enough to be in fourth grade.

"Yeah... Thanks."

He didn't ask but he dragged me to his table where his friends greeted me like I was theirs too. From that day, things changed.

Despite how he act now, Josh was really cool with me, he was a sport oriented guy, but he was also geeky so I did a good contrast with the rest of his friends. He even showed me how to do boxing, but I never really got good at it. I hate hurting things, people even much more so.

Over the next three years we stuck together as best friends. He dated a lot of girls, unlike me, but never really stayed with any of them long. He sometimes teased me about how I never went after girls and he even once set me up with a double date with him. That was akward.

It's only around April of last year that I really realised something. I didn't like girls... At all. My hormones were starting to hit their peek and I began getting attracted to guys... That made showers after PE hard to get through...

May was when he noticed how strange and weird I was acting. He took me to a corner of the Cafeteria to talk about what was going on. I tried to deflect the subject but he insisted.
Finally, I gathered my courage and told him.

Not with words...

I kissed him, infront of a big part of the school...

At first he stayed there, just paralysed. But after maybe two minutes of silence and akward stares, I ate his fist right up my nose, breaking it.

I went home after that and things were never the same...

The End

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