That's how many hours I have left until the next chapter of my life begins.
Tomorrow morning I move into my dorm at SAU. It's crazy how time flies. As this coming days approach, I find myself wishing time would slow down. In short, major nostalgia has appeared. I think of the old days, childhood, where my biggest worry was what I wanted to do next. Whether it was watch a Disney movie or play outside, life was easier. Oddly enough, I remember not liking having to take naps. Now I wish more than anything I had a solid half hour or so to sleep! I've been so busy packing for school and working at my part time job (that I'm still keeping even though I'm going off to college). I worked 9.5 hours last night!
Needless to say, I'm a bit tired.
I remember back a few years ago, I went through a "Peter Pan" phase. I didn't want to grow up. I wanted to stay a kid forever, and for a while, I believed I could. I didn't need to grow up, become an adult. I could just stay a child and live in Neverland. It seemed like a good idea at the time, but as I look back, I'm glad I grew out of that phase. Don't get me wrong, Peter Pan is awesome, but I'm glad I got to grow up. I've had so many amazing experiences, going to prom, graduating from high school, working an amazing job that I love, and preparing for college to name a few.
I'm still having a hard time comprehending that this is it. Another summer gone. Moving out. Leaving behind friends who are seniors in high school. Leaving my parents, younger sister and adorable dog. Making my own decisions. Not having a curfew. Making my own schedule....
So this is freedom.
This is growing up, becoming an adult, even though I passed the age of majority in my state two years ago. Now I finally feel like an adult. I get to make my own choices, my own rules. I get to be my own person.
How great is that?
As the last few hours I have at home dwindle away, a tidal wave of excitement and a bundle of nerves wash over me. I'm a college student! It's official! Although I guess you could say it was official when I got my acceptance letter almost a year ago. Yes, I had just started my senior year, and four days later I get my acceptance letter to SAU!
It's crazy. But crazy, I've learned, is good.