Kelsey would never be able to remember the next few minutes that the phone conversation occupied. All she would remember is dropping it and hearing the ear shattering sound it made hitting the floor as she walked away. She had to get out. Away from his voice and what he had just told her. She thought about turning on the TV just to make sure that this hadn’t just been some sick joke but she knew what she would find and couldn’t bear seeing the images. She walked through her silent and empty house and made her way to the door. The brightness of the sun blinded her as she stepped outside and onto her yard. She managed to make it a few steps before finally falling down to her knees and bursting out into tears.
Images of twisted metal sinking down to the depths of the ocean ran through her mind as she thought about what Mike had just told her. She imagined small pieces of someone’s luggage or a child’s teddy bear rising to the top and floating on the water. She thought about Alicia, the love of her life, who had been in her arms just a few days ago, now being dug out of the wreckage by a bunch of police officers in scuba gear, men who had no idea who she was or who she had left behind. Kelsey had never imagined that anything could hurt so much or so many tears could fall from her eyes. She dug her nails into the ground in front of her and tried to stop her body from convulsing. What the hell was she suppose to do now? How was she suppose to go on after this? At that moment she realized just how pointless their argument had been. How could she have been so dumb and stupid? All Alicia had wanted was for her to commit and spend the rest of her life with her. She had pushed her away and now because of that she was gone. She looked down at the green grass and cursed it and the earth it belonged to. Millions of happy people would wake up this morning and go about their day as if nothing had ever happened. They would kiss whoever they loved goodbye and would return that following night to those same arms and not have to worry about what it would be like if those warm arms weren’t there when they got back. Kelsey, however, would be expected to be strong and go on with her life. She cursed all of those people and the earth they lived on which had taken away the only person who had ever cared about her.
“Fuck you!” She screamed at the top of her lungs, hating herself, hating humanity, hating everything that kept her from rewinding the clock and being in Alicia’s arms. The rest of her body collapsed onto the ground, unwilling to support her weight anymore. She rolled over onto her back and stared up at the heavens above her. Her breathing began to slow and she could feel the rapid beating of her heart pounding against her chest. A gust of wind blew through the trees, rustling the leaves, and causing goose bumps to appear across her bare skin. Her breath caught in her throat as she heard her name being called in it. It was from a voice she had never heard before. It was deep, yet soft and kind of musical. She listened closely, closing her eyes, and she heard breathing coming from the wind. It was as if it was alive or something. She heard the sound of a door slamming shut and her eyes popped open. She scrambled up to her knees and turned around to see a familiar car parked in her drive-way, Alicia standing next to it with her bag in her hand. She immediately dropped it and ran over to where Kelsey was kneeling in the grass.
She scooped her up into her arms. “Oh baby, what’s wrong?” Kelsey wrapped her arms around her neck and buried her face into her long dark hair. She began to sob uncontrollably.