Life-An indefinable term

This story is all about me in a way.. i dont think it will have a specific ending or something, 'cuz its my life im writing about.. but there's this huge change.. the actual characters are addressed wid other names so none of the names are mentioned here its all changed..

School was over and I was glad that it got over. I was craving to go home. I wanted to be away from school because all my problems were from school. I met these guys from school. That’s how I landed into problems unknowingly.

It was autumn and the leaves were falling from the trees. I stared at the road I was walking on. Some leaves crunched under my foot. I didn’t bother at all. I was just lost in my thoughts, lost in what I was up to. If I would go and open up with someone, that person would likely get confused himself or would state, “What sort of a chick is she? She doesn’t know what she is doing and she thinks there’s a solution to the whole mess.”

Suddenly, I felt someone near me. It was Jayden.


I looked up to see him panting.


“Why didn’t you wait for me? I was calling out to you but you were in your own world.” He said.

I stopped walking and apologized, “I’m sorry, it’s just that I was lost in my thoughts. I'm really sorry. I-”

“No, it’s okay.”

“Easy for you to say,” I mumbled.

Jayden was my boyfriend. I regretted allowing him to be my boyfriend. I mean to say, I agreed to be his girlfriend ignoring the fact that I was… crazily in love with Cameron.

Jayden was unique in his own way. He didn’t have many girlfriends; I was his third, so was he. He was cute, innocent and worth having a girlfriend. He was not that attractive like other guys at school, but he surely had an attractive personality. He respected girls a lot. He never forced me. He asked me twice when I said I didn’t have any problem to be his girlfriend. He was not harsh on me, he has never been. He had chocolate brown eyes, jet black shaggy hair which was always in a mess (and it looked awesome when they were in a mess), quite slim and strong.

“What did you say?” he asked, his forehead creasing.

“Nothing.” I said.

“You want me to walk you home?” he asked.

I simply nodded to his question. I did want to be with him, to stay away from thinking of what I was doing.

Whenever I was near him, it felt really warm and comfortable. Whenever our hands would brush against each other’s, I wouldn’t get goose bumps though, but I smiled every time that happened. I would love to stay real close to him. Whenever what he said I wouldn’t understand and he would come closer to tell me, I felt nice and blissful. It was a heavenly feeling I never had.

But at the same time, there was Cameron. Cameron had such an awesome complexion, totally white skinned, glowing brown eyes and very tall. His hair was a mixture of brown, bronze and a bit of hazel, I guess. I'm not pretty sure of the color of his hair. It shined under the light and it looked really amazing. His smile could light up the whole of my world. The day he had smiled at me drove me crazy. My world was spinning with ecstasy. 

I wrapped my arms around Jayden’s and lay my head on his shoulder. I could feel him turn towards me in surprise.


I didn’t look up. He stopped walking and pulled my face in a view so that he could see me.

“What’s wrong?” he asked. His eyes sparkled with concern.

“Nothing,” I choked out.

“You okay?”

“Yes, I am, Jay.”

“You don’t seem to. Kaylee, tell me what’s wrong, please?”

I controlled the tears that were filling my eyes. It felt thicker and everything seemed to blur a bit. Jayden noticed the tears in my eyes. His face got all worried and bothered. Finally, I failed to control my tears. Streams rolled down my cheeks.

“Why are you crying?” he asked, wiping my tears.

“It’s all wrong!” I cried.

“What’s all wrong?” he asked patiently.

I stared into his eyes and started crying all the more. My cheeks flushed with guilt. This was wrong. I was hurting him. I so understood what it was for Ethan. Oh no. Ethan was the second problem I wanted to avoid right now. I would likely mention that part later.

I hugged Jayden tightly and cried harder. I couldn’t help it.

“Hey, see, you really got to tell me what’s wrong.” He said.

“I can't.” I sobbed.


“You’ll breakup with me.” I said.

“What?” he pulled away. “Hey, why would I do that?”

“It’s that bad.” I said.

“Is it? Well, I won’t. Please, Kayl, tell me!”

“I shouldn’t have brought this up.” I stopped crying by now.

“Well, you bought it up so, go on, you’ve got to complete it.”

“Jay, I’ll see you later.” I snapped.

“If that’s what you want,” he lost all hopes. “I love you.”

“I love you too.” I sighed and walked home.

The End

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