For the purpose of secrecy, I'm going to call this boy 'X'. And my friends are going to be 'E', 'A', 'K' etc. ...
You see, I'm a teenager. That much is obvious. When you're a teenager, I'm sure you've all had this at some point, you start to 'fancy' other people. But the thing is, my feelings are always MORE.
You see, if I'm a bit miserable I'll be majorly depressed. So, imagine having strong feelings for someone ... Yep, you've got it.
I might possibly be in love with my friend X. He's always been my friend - well, since I started secondary school, and met him. Half the girls in my year fancy him.
And he fancies someone else. I know who it is, or at least, I've been told by my friends who they think it is. Let's call her 'L'. Now, L and X are always together. Laughing, chatting ... flirting. It's obvious they think the world of each other.
And I think I'm in love with X, but he fancies her. So what do I do?
Well, at the moment, nothing. But it's eating away at me. You see, every time I see them together I get so mad! I want to cut myself. I already have once. Not to kill myself, but because I want them to see what it is they've done to me.
If he ever bothers to look at me, he'll see the scars and he'll ask me why. And I'll tell him.
It's not deep enough to draw blood, but it's deep enough to leave a scar, at least for a few months.
What do I do?
Everyone seems to fancy him, but I can't explain that I feel SO MUCH MORE.
I can't trust any of my friends with this secret. So I'm telling strangers. Random people. Because they don't know who I am or who he is, and so they can't spread it. They can't judge me.
That's why I'm doing this.
What should I do?