It's been a while since I wrote to you but today is the one year anniversary that I know you are gone.
It's been a while since I've tried to write, but my fingers just could not find the keys. My hands could not hold the pencil and my mind would not allow the thoughts to be processed.
Its been a while since my tears blinded me from reading my truths and my heart protected me and continued to beat when I thought all was lost and had just about given up hope.
It's been a while since I allowed the pain to flow freely through my body, to etch its way into every nook and cranny.
It's been a while since I have allowed myself to cry to vent my anger and frustration but more intense the feeling of rage for having lost you, for having lost us.
It's been a while since I opened myself up to feeling the love that we once shared, that I am now learning how to feel again.
It's been a while since I learned how to forgive myself for being a child and my childish actions.
It's been a while.. but I still love you... and cannot believe you are gone...
It's been a while... but I am starting to learn how to keep the faith..