I have this habit of getting annoyed at the person I like. To elaborate- I get annoyed when they don't like me back. Honestly I don't even know why, they don't know I like them, so why should I be mad that they don't like me back?
I guess its partially because I am terrible at hiding it. I will, more often than not, make it very obvious without even trying. I don't mean to, it just kind of... happens. Like when I do something I shouldn't and I my mom instantly knows, and asks me what I did- though sometimes I don't even do anything and I get the same look.
Anyways, back to what I was saying. Why can't I just get over it, and stop liking them? Or at least I would like to ignore my anger and move on; that seems impossible.
I guess perhaps its just because I feel like I'm not good enough, and then I get a little upset. I start thinking things like "why aren't I good enough for you? Why do you like her when I'm clearly better?" You know, the age old questions that I suppose we all think from time to time.
But I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to ask these questions. I want to be happy being single, and liking someone even if they don't like me back.
I just keep on telling myself "at least you're friends. At least you get to chat and hangout sometimes" Though it seems like its not good enough anymore.
Gosh... I can't wait to leave this damned school and meet new people. I have a better chance of someone I like, liking me back for once. Or so I hope...