I need something. Something seriously life changing- in a good way preferably.
Please help me!
I need to forget him! To stop wondering how he is, or if he's found another girl and moved on. I need something to take away the pain of how it ended. To erase the worry that he still hates me.
I need to make him disappear from my life forever.
I don't want to be with him. He's a self centered jerk. He treated me like a showroom toy. Just someone to show that he could get a date. He never wanted a girlfriend. No matter how much he said he loved me, he only loved the idea of me.
I pity him. I pity him so much it hurts. I don't want to see him putting himself down, selling himself to every girl he meets. I just want him to be himself and realize that there is someone out there for him who will love him for all he is, and he will love her back with all his heart. I want him to know that he is not going to be forever alone.
I know its not very reassuring saying that. Considering I broke up with him. But he was breaking me down, the same as I was breaking him down in response. I don't want him to hurt- but I don't want to be hurt too. So don't think me the bad guy. But don't think he is either.
I just wish now that I could take back the time I had with him. Because remembering hurts more when I realize I can't talk to him anymore...