my world is asleep
but here i sit, waiting
someone once lied to me
said it was mine for the taking
my eyelids don't flutter
i'm bright eyed and so raw i'm tender
yet my mind gets so hazy
its hard to remember
in the dead of the night, sometimes i'd swear
you were beside me. i'd feel your arms wrap
around my waist. i feel your breath but its
too dark to see. i revel in the fact that you visit
me in my dreams.
lack of sleep, i guess, is the cause
i know i'm making you up, imagining things
but my heart still races and my ears still ring
i feel you trace a finger down my leg
frustration and loneliness make my cheeks wet
i shake my head, find i'm alone in the room
i'd have sworn you were there.
bet my life on it.
but i sit back up and turn on the light.
you are the reason i'm afraid of