Back to Forks
One year later after completing my management papers, when I was twenty, I decided it was time to head to my supermarkets to take over the official operations of them. Before I went to perform this job, I decided I better go and get a mobile phone. So I walked into the store and purchased the most effective one I saw and ensured the number was written on a business card that I went to get printed up. I also wanted to formally offer the general managers their jobs back.
I decided before I did that, I had better do it right and legal so I went into a lawyer with the paperwork as to who the managers are and their pays and so on and so forth, and explained “Hello, I am Rachel McIsaac. My mother died last year and left me three supermarkets and I have decided that I want to offer the managers their jobs back. I was wondering if you can please put together a contract, with an escape clause for both parties for supermarket managers.”
The lawyer looked at me and smiled. “Certainly, Miss McIsaac, we would be more than happy to do this for you. We will get the paperwork sorted out for you. Do you have their names by any chance?”
I handed him my folder and said, “Ill be back in about one week to pick these up and to pay you. How much would I be looking at?”
He smiled and said, “Our standard service is five hundred per year, per business, but for more than one business it knocks off ten percent each business, making it twelve hundred dollars total for all three.” I considered that and commented, “Deal. I will see you in one week for the contracts and for payment. I’ll see you with thirteen hundred. Oh, before I forget, I want them all to have a ten percent pay raise as well please.”
I walked into the lawyers a week later, paid the thirteen hundred, took the contracts and decided to go and fulfill my duty as owner of three supermarkets
I walked into the first supermarket in Port Angeles since that is where I was at the time and offered the manager the new contract and everything. I then went into Aberdeen and did the same.
It was that time when I decided it was time to move back to my home in Forks, so I went to Amiel and Jean and said “Before I start to say what I want to say, I want to thank you for your hospitality and I also want to emphasize that, with your permission, I would love it very much if we could remain close friends, however I feel it is time that I returned to Forks. I will miss you both, but I will also return every so often and visit… But only if that is ok with you two.”
Jean and Amiel looked at each other and said “It was a pleasure having you here, Rachel, and we would love to remain very close friends. It is a shame that it is time for you return to forks, but I hope it will also be ok if we visit you as well. And it will be no problems for you to visit us.”
“Of course it is, I would love you to visit, and stay if you so need” I responded, “The more the merrier. Also please accept this donation as a token of my gratitude. I know it is not much, but I think it will help you both out.” I handed them a cheque for fifty thousand dollars, and said “please do not try to give it back to me, as I will only put it into your bank account. And I would be greatly offended as well.”
So I left Port Angeles and headed back to Forks in my new car.
When I got to Forks I went and purchased some flowers, then decided that I had to go visit my parent’s graves and put the flowers on the graves. I then went to the supermarket with the new contract and secured the manager’s job for him.
A week later, I decided to visit Yosef, and was surprised to see a very attractive young man. So we decided to go on a date. We decided to go and see a movie called ‘The truth about my way’ and then went out to a meal at a restaurant. We both had a great night and agreed to another date a week later.
I was surprised that I was even interested in Yosef like this. I mean up until about two years ago, I was a guy, but every time I looked at Yosef, I felt my heart give a few extra pumps and I felt happy to see him. I knew due to my past… life? Perhaps that was the correct word… what this meant to me. I hoped it is just infatuation, I mean; I just met this guy about what eighteen months ago? Wow now that I look at it that way, I am surprised that I did not realize it before.
So I decided to go and see a councilor in the form of Lieutenant Sara Booth. I went in and said, “Hello, Sara, I have a slight problem that I need to talk to you about. Is that ok with you?”
“Sure” she said, “What’s up?”
“I know you know about my past, which is why I want, no need to talk to you about it. I am interested in Yosef. I am however concerned about this as well. I mean, he is my friend, and I am not too sure I am ready for a relationship with him. I feel happy to see him and I look forward to meeting with him but I am confused. I mean yeah he is a cute guy to me, and he is friendly to me and we talk freely and openly, but I don’t want to ruin my friendship with him. I don’t know what to do. What is your advice about this situation?”
She thought for a moment before saying “you know something, when I first saw you and Yosef together, I thought you two were already in a relationship. You were talking so openly, freely and the way he looked at you and you at him, you both looked… protective? Is that the right word I am looking for? I’ll use it any way, you both looked at each other in a very protective manner. But it was also very provocative as well. I talked to Ezra about it when you were, preoccupied and she agreed that you seemed very close together. She was also concerned about your past, but she seemed relieved when you both seemed to share the same feelings.
“My advice, as I am sure you would have guessed, is to pray about it, talk to him and see if he even feels the same way toward you. See what God wants you to do, and act on that.”
I thought about that before I said “but when we open ourselves up to relationships like this, there is an opportunity that things might backfire and I might lose my friend. I can’t stand if that happens. But do you know the worst part about it? I was a counselor when I was Alan, so I knew what you would say as well, but I did not want to act on it without talking to you as well.”
We talked a bit more about it, and I decided to approach Yosef, I had my second date in about three days so I thought that would be a perfect time to talk to him.
I prayed about things at six pm and he turned up at my house, at six thirty, for a seven pm movie. So we went to the movie, which was a remake of an old classic called ‘the day the earth stood still’ and then went to dinner at a restaurant. I decided that this was as better time as ever, so I said “Yosef, I feel I need to talk to you, but I don’t want to scare you off do you mind?”
“Not at all” he said.
“You see I have a slight problem, but I don’t want to lose you as a friend. This is my concerns but please don’t get offended, but I know you know about my past, which is why I want, no need to talk to you about it. I am interested in you, but you are my friend, and I am not too sure if I am ready for a relationship with you, but I feel drawn to you, I feel happy to see you and I look forward to meeting with you but I am also confused. I mean you are friendly and we talk freely and openly, but I don’t want to ruin my friendship with you, which I might just have done.”
He looked right me with his fork half way up to his mouth and said as he placed his fork down again, “ok so you do have a problem don’t you, but I don’t think it is that big and you will not lose me as your friend. I do know about your past, which is why I need to respond to you about this now that you have opened it. I am very interested in you as well but I am not too sure if I am ready for a relationship with you yet, but I feel drawn to you, I feel happy to see you and I look forward to meeting with you but I am prepared to try if you want to. I mean you are friendly to me and we talk like we belong together, but I don’t want to ruin my friendship with you either. Do you want to see how things go and see what happens?”
I was relieved about this suggestion so I said, “Yes, I would love to see how things go between us. But for now, can we keep this between just you and me as I am a little bit concerned about what everyone will say. I need to talk to Sara Booth about it, and I am happy for you to talk to Bill Booth if you want to as well, I am going to talk to Sara tomorrow about things and I am sure that this will come up. Do you mind me talking to her?”
“That is fine, but I can’t talk to Bill about this as I don’t know him like you apparently do, but I want to talk to someone. I have a counselor here that I sometimes talk to about things, his name is Jo Peterson. Do you mind if I talk to him instead of Bill Booth?” He asked.
“That is fine; I will see you tomorrow after I see Sara anyway. Ok?”
“Sure” He responded, “but lets’ enjoy dinner first, ok Rachel?”
So we sat, enjoyed dinner and listened to the music. I finished my dinner first so I sat and looked into his eyes, which were a beautiful chocolate brown and as he looked at me, they sparkled. I smiled at him and he smiled at me.
When we had finished eating, I called for the check, but he was such a gentleman, he asked how much his half was. I looked at him before I commented, “twenty five dollars, but ill cover it for you. You paid for the movies”
He smiled and tried to argue, but I did not let him get his way. I paid the full amount, and then we stood up, and left together. I drove Yosef home to his place, and dropped him off. I went home and rang Sara and explained everything. “I’ll talk to you about it tomorrow morning at about ten thirty. Is that ok, Rachel” she asked.
“Sure” I commented, “I’ll talk to you about it then, and thanks again”
“No worries Rachel that’s why I’m here.”
Then I decided to go to bed and it took over an hour to go to sleep, because I was thinking about Yosef and our discussion tonight and what I would be saying to Sara tomorrow morning.
When I woke up early the next morning, about five thirty, I opened the curtains and admired the fine day. I also made a mental note to go to the beach, perhaps with Yosef if he is available, and enjoy some time at First beach in La Push like I wanted to do a few years ago. So I went and open up my supermarket so the other workers could enter it, and then went for breakfast. It was still too early to do anything, so I started to drive to Port Angeles and parked at the beach and waited until about ten fifteen, before going to see Sara.
I walked in and promptly said “I went out to dinner with Yosef and had a chat to him. I said to him Yosef, I feel I need to talk to you, but I don’t want to scare you off do you mind? He said Not at all.
“So I said that I have a slight problem, but I don’t want to lose him as a friend, but this is my concern. I also asked him not to get offended, but I know he know about my past, which is why I want, no need to talk to him about it. I said that I am interested in him, but he is my friend, and I am not too sure if I am ready for a relationship with him, but I feel drawn to him, attracted to him. I feel happy to see him and I look forward to meeting with him but I’m also confused. I mean he is a friendly guy and we talk freely and openly, but I don’t want to ruin our friendship, which I might just have done.
“He looked right me put his fork down and said that I do have a bit of a problem. But he does not think it is that big and that I will not lose me as my friend. He also said that he does know about my past, which is why he needed to respond to my statement about this, now that I opened it.
“He said that he is very interested in me as well but he is not too sure if he’s ready for a relationship yet, but he does feel drawn to me as well, he feels the same way about me as I feel about him but he is prepared to try if that is what I really want to do.
“He also said that I am a great lady who is friendly and we talk like we belong together, and he does not want to ruin our friendship either. He asked if I want to see how things go and see what happens.
“I was relieved when he said this so I said, Yes, I would love to see how things go between us. But for now, can we keep this just between him and me as I am a little bit concerned about what everyone will say about it. I said that I needed to talk to you about it, and I am happy for him to talk to Bill if he wants to, I said that I was coming to talk to you today about things and I he could come up with me if he wanted and that I was sure that this would come up.
“I asked if he minded me talking to you and he said that that is fine, but he can’t talk to Bill about this as he does not really know him like I do, but he want to talk to someone else. He has a counselor in forks that he sometimes talks to about things, his name is Jo Peterson. He asked if I minded if he talks to him instead of Bill. I said that that was fine; and that I would see you tomorrow after I talked to you. But I’m not sure what to do now or where this could go. That is why I need to talk to you.”
She thought about that before commenting, “I think you did the right thing, but did you pray about it?”
I nodded, and she went on to say “Ok then, It sounds like you both feel the same way about each other, so how about if you just give it some time, Rachel? Let things develop naturally and see what happens?”
I had to think about this and I said to her, “Ok, thanks, I’ll keep praying about it, and see what happens about it then. Thanks Sara.”
“That is quite all right, Rachel. But I am a little bit concerned about something. Do you know what it is?”
I thought about that before I answered her, and I said, “My past umm… life I supposed you could call it, the fact that I used to be Alan, the fact that I used to be attracted to women, and now I seem to be attracted to men. Is it possible that my body has altered that?”
“Anything is possible Rachel, but I am sure you see the problem as well. You were are guy, who has spent over thirty years being attracted to females, and now you have been a woman for two and a half years, and you are attracted to guys. I am sure that everyone would be concerned about this as well. The only thing that I can consider is the fact that you have been praying and acting as a female, perhaps it is having a permanent affect. Anyway, I’ll let you go to do your next thing, but be careful. Ok, Rachel?”
“Ok then Sara, thanks.” I said and then I walked out. Got to my car and drove home to forks to get my bathing suit and to ring Yosef about the idea of going to the beach.