This was basically outlining my thought process for winning an argument - any argument. To express myself sharply, and then to equivocate when I fail, and to then to enrapture myself in a memory or a song - which rejuvenates me.
I first make a logical argument in my head, I have the confidence that it is correct. Then, when I reach a stumbling block, I remember to allow the emotion of spirit to take on me in order to guide my logic. I fix myself, but lo and behold, another possible error in logic. This time I equivocate, falling into the sublime revery of singing and dancing in a harmonious performance of "You Shook me all Night Long". This is part of my struggle for power, ambition, to overrun the world with my championed philosophy. I am no longer oppressed, but disenchanted. But impressed with ma skillz.
Every single human being is obsessed with power or ambition in some way or another. I realized this fact this year.
Anatomy of making notes of self-reflection:
---> Unit of ambition (memory)
---> Proceeding to humble oneself
---> Realization of self-reward
---> Use to obtain more ambition
---> Self-deception of humility
---> Emptiness of direction
---> Reawakening of this - the re-emergence of the will