All there I could feel was the darkness closing in around me, caressing me as I fell further away from the light. Then through the still calm of the blackness a jolt pulled me back to reality.
Slowly I could begin to feel things. A scratchy bedsheet against my legs, something strapped tightly to my arm and something else in the back of my hand. And in the background the steady bleeping of a machine.
I opened my eyes. Everything was blurred into one massive white mass. I blinked and a face appeared above me. Is this it? Am I finally with mum and dad?
'Hello can you hear me? Sam?' It wasn't mum. Her hair was all wrong and she looked far too young. I tried to push the image away and return to the darkness but it's slipping away and I can't go back. 'You're in hospital Sam. Can you remember what happened?'
I remember it all. The rain, the thunder and lightning, the massive empty hole in my stomach and the pain that went with it. I didn't want to remember. All I wanted was to forget.
'Can you speak to me Sam?' I could speak but I didn't want to talk, not to her, someone I didn't know who was only asking because it was her job. I rolled away from her, my body aching from the injuries I must have got when I fell.
'I just want to help you Sam. You need to talk to someone about this. You can't hide from it.'