I brush my hair out of my face and sit down beside Jay. "Plague destroys more than half of the human population, right?" I whisper as his fingers make little knots in my hair. "Less than half. At least," Jay leans in and kisses my neck. "I don't like this, Jay," I stand up. "What's wrong?," he joins me.
"I don't like hurting people. Every time I close my eyes, I see their frightened, little faces looking up at me. Like I'm weird.
Like I'm a monster." I look down at my feet. "It's ok. You're just not used to this. Everything happens to us for a reason." Jay whispers in my ear.
"But this has no reason. This is just a tragic accident, isn't it?" I whip around to face him. "No! You're like this because I need you," he wraps his arms around me and falls to his knees, dragging me down with him. "I love you. I need you. I'll save you. I'll protect you. I'll cherish you. I'll take care of you." he whispers in a hard, hurt tone, making me regret what I said.
"Monsters all have weaknesses. You're mine. I'm yours. Look at you. I'm dragging you down to your knees, begging for forgiveness." I say and he smiles against my chest."This isn't what I'd planned to happen to you, Lexi." he says, muffled by my shirt. "I know. But it has to get better, right? I mean, I'm loving the speed, night vision, sharp senses, and all that." I smile and kiss the top of his head. "I know. But that's the thing. If you want this, then say it. Say it so I don't regret Sabrina's decision." Jay whispers.
"I . ." I can't do this. "I . . . I love being a . ." I promised myself I'd never udder that word ever, even if Jay begged me to. "I love being a vampire." I confess.
It feels . . good. Almost . . . overpowering.
"Thank you, Lexi. Thank you so so much," he hugs me tightly and I hug him back. "It means a lot to me, Lexi. That you've accepted it. And that you love me." Jay's eyes melt into a cool amber and I kiss him on the cheek.
"Now how do I get over this?" I say, taking his hand. "We'll do it together." he whispers and we walk back to the hotel in the sunset.