Chapter 9

As i turn on the water to my shower/hot tob/bathtub. i start to strip and find my self to be very skinny-even though i say i'm fat i can't help feeling or looking somewhat fat. My teras continue to roll down my face as i smear my make-up-unintentally with my hand.I'm crying glitter i say as i smirk and stiffle a laugh,tears of glitter huh,i likw the sound of that. i shut off the main water and make it come out of the shower head and close the curtain to go into my room and turn on my music. i turn on the radio and start to sing about myslf[Verse 1]
I Take These Pills To Make Me Thin
I Dye My Hair, And Cut My Skin
I Tried Everything, To Make Them See Me
But All They See, Is Someone That's Not Me

[Chorus]
Even When I'm Walking On A Wire
Even When I Set Myself On Fire
Why Do I Always Feel Invisible, Invisible
Everyday I Try To Look My Best
Even Though Inside I'm Such A Mess
Why Do I Always Feel Invisible, Invisible

[Verse 2]
Here Inside, My Quiet Heart
You Cannot Hear, My Cries For Help
I Tried Everything, To Make Them See Me
But Every One, Sees What I Can't Be


[Chorus]
Even When I'm Walking On A Wire
Even When I Set Myself On Fire
Why Do I Always Feel Invisible, Invisible
Everyday I Try To Look My Best
Even Though Inside I'm Such A Mess
Why Do I Always Feel Invisible, Invisible

[Bridge]
Sometimes When I'm Alone
I Pretend That I'm A Prince
It's Almost Believable

[Chorus]
Even When I'm Walking On A Wire
Even When I Set Myself On Fire
Why Do I Always Feel Invisible, Invisible
Everyday I Try To Look My Best
Even Though Inside I'm Such A Mess
Why Do I Always Feel Invisible, Invisible

i cryed as i thought of him,chris e. price(alti),my everything,i say. he's been taken away from me by his b**** of an old hag u couldn't ever even call a mom. Rawr, i say as i punch the my dresser. i end up takeing out black and red striped sweat pants , a skin tight red Paramore tee, and a elmo shirtshirt thats way too big for me and set it on the stand next to my shower and get in the shower. as i cry in the shower as i sayto myself, why???why did she have to take im from me as i pick up my razor blade and finsih shaving my legs(NOW DON'T WORRY I DIDN'T REALLY CUT MYSELF IN REAL LIFE SO NO WORRIES) i swiftly slash my left wrist twice and fall to the shower floor. I wake up several second later on the floor of my shower feeling slightly worse, why did i have to slit my wrist? it only makes things worse...i say as i turn off the water and slump against the shower wall. and as i cry tears of glitter i say to myself: oh chris, i need u so badly right nowmy life is meaning less without u. iu so much asnd i could never think of letting u go. i finnally get up out of the shower and cry as i slowly put on my pajamas....i need u. ib pick up my phone from my bed and hit the speed dial button to call him. he answers after a couple of rings...: iconcellphoneplz:

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