Saying goodbye to the one you love is the hardest thing to do.
"Why didn't you tell me?" she asked me, tears streaming down her face. "Did you think I wouldn't understand? Did you think I wouldn't have given you the time of day? Why Elijah?" She stood there holding herself. Her tears wouldn't stop.
"I'm sorry." I started to walk toward her. I wanted to comfort her. I wanted to hold her. I wanted to show her that it was never in my intentions to hurt her.
"No! Just please don't touch me." she started to back away as I walked closer to her. "I don't want to you to touch me, Elijah."
"But, Winnie I-"
"No! You don't get." She backed into a wall and was standing two feet away from her. I tried to reach out for her but she pushed my hand away. "Don't touch me! Why didn't you tell me you were leaving?"
"I was afraid to." I stepped even closer to her to try and reach for her again.
"What were you afraid of?" She pushed my hand away. Then she began to hit me. Repeatedly. "I hate you so much for doing this to me." She still hit me and I finally grabbed her hands. "Let me go."
"No. Not until you listen to me." I tried to look her in her eye but she turned away from me.
"I don't want to. Please just let me go." She tried to pull her wrists out of my hands, but it was no use. I was stronger than her.
"Elijah! Let me g-" My lips crashed into hers.
Time seemed to have stopped, but my heart beat doubled in speed. She stopped struggling against me, and I brought her hands up to go around my neck. I let them go and wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her body close to mine. She tangled her fingers in my hair as our kiss became more aggressive. I bit her lip signaling for her to let my tongue in and she did. It seemed to last forever as our lips moved together. Finally, I pulled away. Both of us were breathless as I pecked her lips again.
"Whay didn't you just tell me you were leaving?" she whispered.
"Because, I didn't know I would fall in love. I was afraid that if I told you I was leaving, you would just up and leave me." She leaned her forhead against mine, still catching her breath. "I'm in love with you, and I wanted to spend every moment possible with you. So, I didn't tell you because I didn't want you to leave me. I'm sorry. It was stupid. I know that now."
"Elijah. I would have never done that. I still thnk you should have told me. Because I fell for you, and I don't want to live here without you." She kissed me again.
"I'm sorry Winnie. I'm really sorry."
"I know," she whispered, holding my face in her hands. "When do you have to leave?"
"Tomorrow morning. Well, it's well after midnight now, so in a couple of hour" She looked away, starting to cry again. I pulled her face toward mine. "Please don't cry. I love you. I love you so much." I kissed her forehead and just held her in silence. Minutes passed as we just stood there. Nothing but the sound of our heartbeats.
"You should go," she said lowly, breaking the silence.
"I know." I looked down at her and kissed her one last time passionately. "I'll always love you, Winnie."
"Promise?" she asked.
"I promise." Then I pecked her cheek and walked away, not looking back. I couldn't look back. There was no time to look back. I had to keep going.
I hate saying goodbye.