One day Pete, Khael, and Jordan had came to visit Lin. It was one of her treatment nights again. Pete was to stay with her for the night. “Hey Lin I know that tonight is one of your treatment nights and I wanted to know if I could stay with you as well?” Jordan stood in the doorway as he asked her not sure of how she would react.
“Well if you think that you can handle it. Both of you can stay.”
Two hours later
Khael had left and Lin was on her way out the door to her treatment. With Lin at treatment Pete set up the room for Lin. “I just make it easier for her to be able to get things that she might need.”
“Oh ok. You want me to do anything?”
“Um no I’m good. But if you have to breakdown step out into the hall. She’ll have enough to handle tonight.”
“How do you not breakdown on days like this?”
“For her first treatment I was here. And she read my face like a book that night. It took her awhile to let me come back and be able to stay with her for her treatments. So I think back to how I wanted to be here for her and she wouldn’t let me be. I know that I want to be here for her, so I don’t breakdown in front of her. She needs someone it’s just that simple.”
Lin came back to the room. Jordan looked at her and then looked at Pete. Lin went to sleep as soon as she could. Tonight’s treatment was harder on her then usual. Within the next hour she called out, “Pete. Can you help me?” Pete got up and walked over to her bed and took her to the bathroom. Jordan watched as Pete helped her. Pete saw that Jordan wasn’t going to be able to handle tonight. After she was in the bathroom Pete walked over to Jordan, “Go into the hall. She doesn’t need to see you like this.”
Jordan went into the hall and cried like he had never cried before. The nurse looked at him with the look of pity. He stopped and looked at her. He couldn’t believe it, it was the same look that Lin had always been talking about. He got up off the floor and walked to the bathroom.
Pete helped Lin out of the bathroom. “Pete where is Jordan?”
“He went to the bathroom. He’ll be back.”
“Pete you know you can’t lie to me? He couldn’t handle it could he?”
Pete looked down at the floor; she knew then that she was right.
Jordan came back in the room with some ice chips. “Sorry I didn’t want to get in the way so I went to get some ice chips.” He put the cup on her table and kissed her on her head. She took a few of the chips and ate them. Within a few minutes she had fallen back to sleep. A few hours later Lin called out again. This time Jordan help Pete move her to the bathroom. When Pete and Jordan thought that Lin was sleeping she grabbed her book and began to write.
Pete and Jordan stayed for my treatment tonight. Jordan wasn’t able to handle it. I don’t think that I will let Jordan stay for anymore of my treatments. Pete helped me out more then he has ever had to. He was great. Pete is changing before my eyes, it’s like he is getting stronger. He has had to carry the weight of the world on his shoulders and I don’t know how I will ever be able to thank him for being here even when I didn’t want him to be.
I have 3 more weeks before we all go back to school. I can’t wait I'm tired of being in this hospital. But I think I'm going to see if I can get out a day earlier and take my boys, Pete, Khael, and Jordan, out thanking them for everything.