She had asked him to meet her in her room for a dinner just the two of them. It had been awhile since they had had time to just sit and chill. That was at least what she told him. He got to her room 15 minutes late any other time she would have been mad but there was something else on her mind.
After they had finished eating she put the dishes in the sink and went back to the table. She sat back down and looked at him for a second to get her thoughts together,” I have something that I need to tell you.”
He put his glass back down and looked at her, “Ok what do you want to talk about?”
As she began to open her mouth her eyes began to glaze over back to the day she had gotten the news.
“Lin this is more serious then we thought it was. This more then just a hearing loss problem.”
“Ok doctor what is it, do I need to get a hearing aid implant or something?”
“He sat down across from her and looked down at the chart, “We found a mass within your brain that is causing your hearing loss. The mass is a tumor th…”
After he had said that I had a tumor she went blank not hearing what he was saying.
“Lin as of right now when can’t operate on it and it is still growing.”
She stopped him right then and there got up and thanked him for his time and left the room.
“We need to make more appointments to deal with this head on,” he called out.
She went to my car and sat for an hour not sure what she was going to do.
“Lin? You ok, what do you want to talk about?”
She came back and looked at him, “I don’t know how to tell you this, and I have been trying to figure out the best way to tell you. This was the best way that I could think about it. She let out a heavy sigh, Pete I have a tumor and they.” She stopped right, there he looked as white as could be and that was hard for as dark as he was. “Pete, Peter you ok, you don’t look to good? Do you need something to drink or to lye down?”
He got up and went to her cabinet and pulled out her hard liquor. “Pete it is not that bad.”
He stopped and looked at her, “they can fix it? They can take it out?”
She got up and walked over to him and took the bottle from him, “No, they can’t take it out and I don’t know if they can fix it or not.”
At that moment Pete fell to his knees and starting crying. “But you’re so young have and so much to do and live for.”
She grabbed him in her arms and held him, “Now Pete this is the last thing I need right now is for you to be crying about this. I need someone that I can talk to and just hold my hand for now while I figure out what I want to do.”
“What do you mean figure out what you want to do? Your, we’re going to fight this!?” He stopped and looked at her and for the first time he couldn’t read her.
“I’m not sure what I am going to do yet. I still need to tell my mother and a few other people but you right now are the only one that knows about this. Next week I need to call my doctor back with what I want to do.”
“Why next week, why not tomorrow, or right now?
“Because I need to know what I want.”
She helped him up and put the bottle away. “Are you ready to watch this movie?”
“How can you want to watch a movie now we need to finish talking?”
“Pete just because I am dying doesn’t mean that I’m going to stop living. I mean there are some things that I will give up on but, I’m still here for now.”
“What are you giving up on?”
She knew that he would ask her that, she closed her eyes and whispered, “Finding love.”
He couldn’t help but start crying again, “You can’t give up on that anything but that. Please don’t give up on love.”
She shook her head and looked at him, “How can I have someone fall in love with me if I know that I am dying?” She walked into her bathroom; she couldn’t hold it in any longer. She stayed in for 20 minutes; not wanting Pete to see her like that.
She came out of the bathroom and Pete was on the couch with her favorite blanket and the movie ready to go. She walked over to him and sat at the other end. He moved over and pulled her closer to him and held on to her. She looked at him, with a look of questions on her face; he had never held her before. He just looked at her smiled and kissed her on her forehead and turned his attention back to the movie. She rested her head on his shoulder and watched the movie for about an hour and fell asleep.