I never meant to hurt Aiden. He was the last person I wanted to hurt.
But it had been a difficult time. Jake and Caitlin were dating. Even though I loved Aiden, my feelings for Jake were still going strong, which killed me inside.
I knew I couldn't love him, I shouldn't. But I did and to make things worse, he was supposed to come to my house to leave me some papers.
I knew what I'd do. What I used to do every time he came over. I'd stare out my window, looking for the car to pull up. Then I'd rush downstairs and pretend I didn't know he was there.
2 Hours Later
I knew I'd do it. Now I was sat on the stairs waiting for him to knock ever so gently on the door. When he did I ran to the door, pretending it was Madison.
"Hey, you wanna come.. Oh, hi Jake." His face was so perfect, his hair just covered his eyes and his nose was always the main attraction. It was a cute button nose and I loved it.
"I was just dropping these off." He passed me the papers and looked into my eyes. He closed his and sighed, then he pulled me into a hug. Squeezing me so tightly, I could barely breath. He whispered "Everything will be okay, I promise. You know I'll always love you, but its just too painful to be with you." He kissed my cheek softly, then released me.
We stared into each others eyes for a minute. His eyes seemed the glisten, like they used to when I made him happy. "I love you Aubree." He cupped my face in his hands and kissed me passionately on the lips. It was just like it used to be, soft yet hard.
I could kiss him forever, but he stopped and pulled his car keys out of his pocket. He locked the car and pushed me inside.
"Jake, what are you doing?"
"What I always wanted to do. Give myself to you"
"Jake. No. I don't want this."
" We promised we'd safe ourselves for each other so we could be our first. I've saved myself. Have you?" He was lying. He slept with Caitlin the day he broke up with me. Caitlin sent a text to my brother asking for condoms.
"No, I haven't. Neither have you, so don't lie to me. What was that kiss all about? Lust? I don't need you in my life anymore Jake. You cause too much pain. Like you said, I'll always love you, its just to painful to be with you." He stepped back and looked at me.
"Aubree? I thought we had something special."
"So did I. But then you slept with Caitlin and ruined my life." I threw the papers to the floor, my cardigan followed them, revealing the cuts and bruises on my arms.
"Aubree! What have you done! Oh baby, did I do this to you?!"
"Yes. Are you proud of yourself? Get out of my house. Get out of my life. I don't love you. I love Aiden." He stepped back further and fell out of my door. He stood up and brushed his hair out of his face.
"Okay Aubree. I'll go, but you know I can't get out of your life. We both go to the same clubs and have the same friends. We'll see each other sometimes."
"I don't want to see you. Its over. I never want to hear your name again. Goodbye Jake. Have a nice life"
He walked away and I closed the door. I could feel the tears gathering and they exploded out of my eyes. I slid slowly down the door and curled up on the floor, not caring about the pain it caused my bruises.
He was gone. I could never have him back ever.