Me and Lucy had been up for it right away, Tommy’s parties were legendary back in high school, we’d never been lucky enough to be invited to one. Hannah took a lot more persuading, she desperately didn’t want to go, mainly because of embarrassment at seeing Tommy again, but also because she was worried about what her over-protective parents would say at her coming in so late, but after Lucy offered us both places at her home that night, Hannah no longer had an excuse and decided to come.
Hannah was still gripping tightly onto my hand when we entered Tommy’s house. His home was quite small, a two-up two-down terraced, and every space was crammed with either people dancing or tables filled with alcohol. I went straight to one of these tables and poured out three vodka and cokes, which was extremely difficult considering that I still had Hannah’s iron grip on my hand.
“Hannah, please let go of me. You’re embarrassing yourself.” I muttered through gritted teeth. She only shook her head and gripped tighter.
“I actually don’t think I can,” She whispered shakily, “I’ve got a really bad feeling about this, Ruth”
I rolled my eyes and placed one of the vodka and cokes in her free hand, “Then drink up and breathe slowly,”
She nodded, and then knocked the drink back in one gulp, after several deep breaths she was able to let go of my hand, and we went in search of Lucy.
We eventually found her talking to some boys who looked considerably older than us, and who all smiled at us when we arrived, looking us up and down.
“Hey, you must be Hannah and Ruth. Lucy’s just been telling us all about the two of yous,” One of the guys slurred, “I’m so glad Tommy found you when he was out, thank God for us, hey?”
He looked pointedly at all of his friends, and me and Hannah gazed back at him in confusion.
”It was us who told him to go and find more booze, and then he found you,” He explained, looking very pleased with himself.
“Well thank you very much,” I said as politely as I could manage, “But as much as I would love to talk to you right now, me and my friends here are required in the kitchen,” I immediately dragged Lucy and Hannah away, and we managed to find places in the kitchen to stand where we wouldn’t get pushed over.
“Thank you so much” Lucy shouted over the music, “Those guys were really creepy!”
Me, Hannah and Lucy were all dancing together in the middle of the kitchen, ignoring everyone else, when Tommy came over and brought his two friends that I recognised from school, but couldn’t for the life of me remember their names.
“Hey, girls” Tommy smiled “Having a good time?”
”Yes! Thank you so much for inviting us!” I shouted, smiling, Lucy and Hannah just nodded enthusiastically.
“Good! Do you remember my mates, Jake and Sam?” He asked
We all introduced ourselves, and started dancing again.
Hannah and Tommy soon went off dancing together – Hannah seeming very pleased with herself. Not too long later, Sam and Lucy were dancing together, leaving me and Jake on our own. I wasn’t too bothered, I mean Jake was a nice guy and all, I just wasn’t too keen on the way he was dancing a little too close, and he wouldn’t back off. After a while, I left to go into the garden – the house was too hot, I’d drunk way too much, and I was still a bit uncomfortable with the way Jake was being with me.
The back garden was completely empty, I breathed in the cold January air, and wandered to the back of the garden, leaning back against the shed. I heard the back door open and close as someone came to join me in the garden. I turned my face slightly to see Jake wondering towards me.
“Hey, Jake” I smiled
“Hey, Ruth” I immediately didn’t like his tone; it sounded aggressive, and determined.
He came up to me, and stood opposite me, so that we were stood nose-to-nose, I looked at him in confusion, and then he pushed his body into mine, and I understood.
“What the hell are you doing?” I shouted, pushing him off me
He chucked, “Don’t play hard to get, Ruthie, I know you want this as much as me,”
“I’m not playing anything, Jake, I think you’re reading the signals wrong,” I pushed him again, but he wouldn’t budge.
He laughed again “You’ve never minded with any of the other guys, and the way you were dancing with me…”
He pulled off my hoodie, and started clawing at my clothes, I tried to fight him off, but he just held me back tighter, one hand gripping onto my arm, the other running up and down my body.
“GET. OFF. ME!” I screamed
He growled, and moved his hand from my arm to my mouth; I fought against him, trying desperately to get free, to get away from him, tears streaming down my face. He started to unzip his trousers, and I tried to scream, but the sound was muffled by his hand, I closed my eyes tight, trying desperately to block out what he was doing, tears flooding out of my closed eyelids. I could feel his hands on the waistband of my jeans, unbuttoning and unzipping them, he pushed them down along with my underwear. The night air was cold and I tried to focus on that instead of what he was doing to me.
I could smell the alcohol on his breath and the stench of the ridiculous amount of Lynx he was wearing. I could feel myself shaking all over, my eyes still closed, I couldn’t open them now, even if I tried, I wanted to fight, but I couldn’t I was too scared, I felt weak with fear.
‘Please, God help me. Please don’t let this happen’ I thought desperately ‘Please help me, please help me…’
“What the hell are you doing?” Shouted an unfamiliar male voice
I felt Jake let go of me, and my eyes slowly opened.
“Nothing… nothing’s going on,” Jake was the one who was sounding scared now.
I quickly redressed myself, as the other guy approached Jake.
“Doesn’t look like nothing, Jake,” He said, through gritted teeth, I moved so that I was stood behind this new guy, and started to walk backwards towards the house.
“C’mon, this is Ruth; you know what she’s like.” Jake said weakly, forcing a laugh
“You tried to rape me,” I said quietly, my voice barely above a whisper.
That was all the guy needed, he charged towards Jake and started hitting and kicking at him. I turned around and ran back into the house.