"I couldn’t bear it any longer, the pain was excruciating. My love was killing me every passing moment. I realised it’s of no use keeping quiet. My heart was brimming to the top with complaints and I had to bring them out. I had to tell him.
What was my fault in all of this? It wasn’t my fault. He was the one who didn’t call me. He was the one who was confused and I was the understanding one every time. Does supporting your love in his problems and confusions wrong? If I am not wrong, why should I suffer?
Why didn’t he call me? Didn’t he love me anymore? Was all that I did, all the plans of working things out in vain? I wasn’t angry, I was just upset.
I couldn’t hold it any longer. I had to finally speak up-
Me: Why didn’t you call me for so long?
Him: Was a little busy.
I could feel the anger burning a hole in my brain. He was so busy that he couldn’t find out a little time for me?
Me: What kept you busy for such a long time?
Him: Was studying for a interview.
I dropped the matter then and there. The last thing I wanted was to pick up a fight on this issue. Though it was the last thing on my list yet I wanted it.
Me: happy birthday
Me: why shouldn’t I remember, your birthday brings a lot of memories.
Me: I prefer keeping that to myself
Him: Say na
Me: There’s loads of them, infact everything about us.
Me: And how situations have changed with times
Him: No, listen it's not like that
I will explain you
Whenever we meet
He has said that endless time. I have even lost count of how many times he had promised me to explain his life, his problems to me, but never did. I knew even this time it was fake, but still had little hopes.
Me: Hmm will wait.
You seem to keep a lot to yourself
Me: And you fall asleep while talking. You don’t have time for me.
Him: Why are you complaining so much today baby, you never do.
Me: Ok, so you are the one who doesn’t text for a month, and dozes off while chatting, what should I do?
Him: It's not like that
You know leave it
It’s all my fault
I didn’t know it would rebounce back so badly. I had to make it right.
Me: I never said it’s your fault
I know there are a lot of complicacies and problems in your life
And I want to work them out with you together
Him: There are no problems, I don’t want to work out.
He went offline after that.
I went to sleep after that. I wasn’t in a mood to do anything. Whatever work I sat with, my mind drifted off towards him. I didn’t want to think about it. I always had this feeling that things turn out well in the morning after a good night’s sleep.”