When Christine awoke, Chad was laying in the bed next to her, wide awake. He was looking at her, and she reached up and touched his face. His face was serious, but not unhappy. She wondered if he had been awake long, just watching her.
"Christine, thank you for being so open with me last night. I do not know how to get through this. I do not understand everything you need because I thought you were happy and satisfied. Maybe you are not ready to get married and maybe I rushed things with you."
"No, we made the decision together. I want to have a life with you. I want to watch Michael grow up. I did doubt that for a while, I thought maybe I needed a change. But it is not true. You show me every day how much you love me, even if someone else may nt understand how special our relationsjip is. What I need is to add some variety. Some adventure."
"But... I have spent all night wondering why. Why are you not satisfied with what we have together."
"I do not know why yet. But I could have ended my life last week. I was just.. jaded with doing the same thing over and over every day, without a clear goal in front of me. It was like I was tired of wroking toward something that I could not connect with... I guess that does not make sense. Either way, I think that I will be a more whole person if I can get out of this normalcy thing we have going and experience more of life.
"You know, it may be as simple as joining a church or charity or something. I am gonna get back to taking classes. And i am going to talk to people. There is this wedding to plan... I hvae just started thinking about it, planning."
Chad watched her eyes move around as she spoke, and he offered a gentle smile. "You look happy, making these plans. I think you are right, you need a goal." He kind of trailed off, wondering if there was more to say. But she just gave him a big smile and rolled over a little to give him a big smooch.
"Go ahead and take your shower and I will start us some breakfast. I love you."
"I love you, too, Christine."