I'm so, so sorry. It must be so hard, I wish I was there too. I went through this when Linda, my sister, died. She tried to commit suicide with pills. It was horrible, but you were there with me, and that made everything just a little bit better.
It's perfectly fine, I'll see you in the New Year, I can wait. It's Chelsea who needs you now. Although I miss you so much, she still needs you more.
You're a wonderful brother to her Franky, the best of the best.