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July 15, 2011

Dear Diary,

I did it, sadly. I had been trying to talk myself out of it, but Bell talked me into it, I saw my father. He looks good in stripes, I suppose. I don’t know what I’m going to do. . .

-Ashley

July 18, 2011

Dear Diary,

Bell and I are at Savanna’s tonight so we can see her before she leaves to go to Louisiana.  Even her brother can’t cheer me up, nor make me smile. I think I made him. . .upset when I didn’t smile, now I feel a lot worse.. We watched movies all night, we ate popcorn all night also.  At least I had fun for the first time.  Thanks to the movies we watched, I know what I’m going to do.

-Ashley

July 20, 2011

Dear Diary,

I did it.  I visited my father again for the last time. I yelled at him, I yelled and yelled and yelled. I told him that he doesn’t deserve love and should die a slow and painful death. I’m happy, I’m smiling, I’m letting go.

-Ashley.

July 23, 2011

Dear Diary,

Bell and I are going to the movies, like usual. My life is officially back. Her boyfriend, Derrick Sky who is also one of my best guy friends, come along, like usual. We watched the movie, texted, talked, threw popcorn, and got shushed the whole time. I’m still not at the point where I can have a true good time.

-Ashley

July 24, 2011

Dear Diary,

Listening to Adele. She is a great artist. I wish I would sing. I almost feel great and alive!  I’m glad I yelled at that man, that horrible man. I hope that I’ve made Daren proud.

-Ashley

July 27, 2011

Dear Diary,

He texted me! He texted me, me, me! His name popped up on my phone and my heart raced! All he said was ‘Hey’, but it was just knowing that he was thinking about me and texted me makes me feel like. . . like a butterfly coming out of its cocoon. But I don’t want to feel like that, not yet anyway.

-Ashley

 

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