Chasing Pavements

Should I give up, or should I just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere, or would it be a waste? Even if I knew my place, should I leave it there?

Should I give up, or should I just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere, or would it be a waste? Even if I knew my place, should I leave it there?


When are you gonna realize that all I want is you, even if you don't want me too?

When are you gonna come face to face with the facts that we're meant to be together, at least for right now?

Or at least, give us a chance. I deserve it, you deserve it too.

We've both been hurt by one significant person, several times.

We've both loved. We've both lost. Now it's time to win. With me.

If only for a moment. If only just to see what it will be like.

Don't give up.

Have faith that despite the odds, this can still work out.

Have faith that I'm not lying when I say I like you, I love you.

Have faith that ... even if right now you don't feel like we could kiss ... our relationship would be so much more than (just) that.

With most people I'd say: they know about me only what I've let them know (about me). But with you, I don't have to even say that. You know everything about me and I hope (I know) you've told me everything about you.

I know that once someone hurts you, it's hard for you to let them back into your life, it's hard for you to open yourself back up to them once they've caused you pain. And I'm the same way.

I know that it's easier for you to love than to hate, because love is stronger than hate will ever be.

I know that you think I'm cute. I know that you like me but something's missing. But not for me...

I know that you like my innocence. And I like your experience.

I love how open you can be with me.

I love that I can come to you about anything at all, (even another guy - but that's usually just to make you jealous) and you won't judge me.

I love and also hate how you express your feelings in person. I hate how you can't look me in the eye without thinking you have to kiss me ... which is exactly what I want you to do. I hate how sometimes you'll point out hot girls in front of me; are you trying to make me jealous too?

I love how open you are with me but I hate how you can't just tell me how you feel about me. You had Valentine's Day to please make a move or so help me God. But that's another story.

I would say I feel like I've made enough moves, but obviously I haven't. You haven't come out and said anything and neither have I. And just because Valentine's Day comes around, doesn't mean we have to establish anything ... I just feel like I'd feel better by knowing the truth.

But at the same time, I'm scared. As we both know, the truth hurts. And it hurts the worse when the one you love doesn't love you back, or even worse loves someone else. So I'm scared of your answer.

I'm scared that if I just come right out and say, "I really like you" or "Kiss me" you'll say "I don't" or "No". I'm scared that the very thing I think will be perfect will turn out to be terrible. I'm scared that ... or I'm tired of getting my hopes up and then having my heart crushed and cut to pieces.

I don't want to say you would do that and I know you don't either ... but I have to consider all of my options here. I know you would never hurt me intentionally, considering how I've been hurt in the past ... but I also know you would never want to lie to me about something that serious. So basically, I lose either way. Yay.

And yes I know, it shouldn't be about winning and losing, but in truth it is. Because we both can't win, unless we're both thinking the same thing. And we're obviously not otherwise everything would have happened already. So either I win and you lose (which is like impossible). Or you win and I lose (very possible). Or the extreme impossible, we both win because you feel the same way and you're scared to admit it because you don't want to get hurt and you don't even want a relationship. But neither do I...

I want someone to be there to hold my hand and say my name with a smile. I want someone to gather me in their arms just so I know that they love me. I want someone to kiss me as if they couldn't survive without me. I want someone to touch me and create that fire feeling to sprout all over me. I want that someone to be you.


I've made up my mind, Don't need to think it over. If I'm wrong, I am right. Don't need to look no further. This ain't lust, I know this is love. But, if I tell the world, I'll never say enough 'cause it was not said to you. And that's exactly what I need to do ... If I end up with you.

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