My Fave Five

1. I'm not afraid of dying. I'm afraid of dying without anyone remembering me. A man at a local church, George, died recently. He had a disability but was always at church and was always nice to everyone. When he found out he was sick, people had a huge party, brought down the mayor, and called it George Day. When he died the church was packed. I want to be remembered for something that makes my church packed.

2. I'm afraid of needles and hospitals. You can laugh all you want but, seriously, who ever decreed that shoving a foreign metal object into your arm and forcing some thick and horrible liquid into your system was the right way to go? Whenever I see a needle I have to force myself not to cry and I don't always win. And hospitals are just depressing and they stand for bad things. I have suffered several head traumas and every time I didn't start crying until I thought I had to go to the hospital.

3. I'm afraid of failing. Failing at what I'm not sure. It's just a general fear. I don't know what I'd do with myself if I was faced with that: failure.

4. I'm afraid that, when I'm older, I'll be stuck here just like I am now. I don't want to be here. I want to do something great with my life and I can't imagine that happening here. I need to go but I'm still working out how to do it. I'm afraid I'll be working it out until I can't anymore.

5. Im afraid of disapointing people. If there's something unpleasant for me to do I can't always get through it if it's just for me. There needs to be some greater motivation pushing me through. I'll do most anything for people if it'll save me from facing their disapointment.

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