About a month passed since Danny and Lewis’ little experiment, and as far as I knew, they hadn’t done it again since. Since it was coming up to the kids’ birthdays, and we’d made plans for the actual day, I agreed they could have a sleepover. Lily wanted to invite more people than we could fit in the house, of course, and was eventually talked down to having just three people over; Beau, her friend Tammy from school, and a quiet girl a few years her junior from riding school called Enneka.
Danny, on the other hand, had only invited Lewis. I couldn’t help but wonder what’d happened to his other couple of friends, but just put it down to him not wanting to swamp Lewis or something. Since Lily and her friends had taken the upper half of the house hostage, Danny and Lewis had resorted to sleeping in sleeping bags in the living room. I’d taken the day off from work, but I was still exhausted, and had ended up falling asleep on the couch by the time the kids had had dinner.
I woke up a couple hours later, seeing Danny and Lewis had zipped their sleeping bags together. Lewis was all snuggled up with Danny, kissing Danny’s cheek as he nuzzled him a little. Danny smiled, and neither of them seemed to have noticed I was awake.
"Can I... can I kiss you again?" Lewis asked quietly.
"If you want to" Danny said, still smiling.
Lewis leant over, pecking him on the lips, snuggling back up to him when Danny kissed back. He curled up against Danny, the both of them falling asleep.
Lewis spent the next day hiding from everyone for some reason. I tracked him down when it was nearing lunch time, finding him in a tree in the garden.
"What're you doing out here by yourself?" I chuckled and he shrugged. “You okay?”
"Sure?" I asked and he nodded.
"I keep wanting to kiss Danny. That's not normal, is it?" he said after a while.
"Sure it is"
"But it'll make it awkward if I keep doing it"
"Well, does he want to kiss you too?"
"I don't know"
"Maybe you should ask him, then"
"But what if that makes him not like me?"
"I'm sure it won't, kiddo"
"I don't want him to not like me"
"He thinks the world of you, he'll always like you" I smiled.
"Does he?" he asked, looking vaguely hopeful and I nodded. “Why?”
"You'd have to ask him that" I laughed slightly.
He didn’t say anything to that, staying in his tree.
"I'm making lunch soon, sport. Why don't you come back inside?"
"You have to eat something, sport"
I sighed as he moved to a higher branch. I headed back inside, making lunch for the others, and Lewis only left his tree to get something to drink and pee. I could tell Danny was worried he’d upset Lewis, and when I finally coaxed Lewis down for dinner, Danny stuck to Beau like glue. Which probably didn’t help the situation with Lewis. I got the kids a pizza, not up to cooking and kind of wanting to treat Lewis. Lewis nibbled at his slice of pizza, leaning on me when I planted a kiss on top of his head. The others finished their dinner, going off to watch something on TV and Lewis picked at the rest of his. I asked him if he was done, asking him to come upstairs with me when he said he was.
I led him up to my room, sitting down on the bed and patting the space next to me.
"What're we gonna do about you and Danny, eh?" I chuckled when he sat next to me.
He looked up at me innocently and I played with his hair.
"I don't know. Did I annoy him?" he asked and I shook my head. “Oh”
"He's worried he's upset you"
"Then you need to tell him that"
"Just let him know you haven't upset him"
"What happens if I keep wanting to kiss him but he doesn't want to kiss me anymore?" he asked and I pulled him onto my lap, cuddling him.
"We can worry about that if it gets to it" I said, kissing the top of his head. "You never had the pleasure of meeting my brother, did you?" I asked and he shook his head. "Y'know Beau's daddy?" I asked and he nodded. "Him and my brother were childhood sweethearts" I smiled.
"What does that mean?" he asked, tilting his head questioningly.
"It means when they were younger, they both had crushes on each other"
"Does that mean Danny has a crush on me?"
"I don't know, sport. Maybe"
"Can you ask him?" he asked, blushing, and I nodded, flashing him a smile. "Do I have a crush on him?" he asked and I couldn’t help laughing a little.
"I can't answer that for you, kiddo"
"How does it feel?"
"They make you feel happy. Like really happy. And you might get butterflies in your tummy when you're around them. You want to be around them a lot, and you might get embarrassed or nervous talking to them" I said after giving it some thought.
"I'm not very good at explaining it"
"You won't tell Danny I have a crush on him, will you?" he asked after a while when I started playing with his hair again.
"Not if you don't want me to"
"It's embarrassing" he said sadly and I cuddled him again.
"Wanna know what happened with Beau's daddy and my brother?" I asked and he nodded. "Neither of them knew how they felt about each other for years. I'm talking like seven years, maybe. And then they went out for a bit, but Beau's daddy had silly parents, and they made him choose between them and my brother. And I guess maybe he was scared, because he chose them. My brother spent years thinking that Beau's daddy didn't like him anymore, and it really upset him" I sort of smiled to myself. "And then they got married"
"Does that mean me and Danny will get married one day then?"
"Maybe. Who knows?"
"I like him, but it's weird 'cause he's a boy"
"Wanna know a secret?"
"When I first met Danny's daddy, I thought it was weird too. It took me months to be able to kiss him properly"
"I never liked anyone before I met him, and I just assumed I only liked girls"
"Were you only little when you met him, like me?"
I shook my head. "I was nineteen"
"And you never liked anyone before that?" he questioned, his jaw dropping in shock.
"Nope" I laughed.
"What was so special about him, then?" he asked curiously, tilting his head again. "Why did you like him and no one else?"
"I wish I knew" I chuckled. "He was just special, I guess"
He snuggled up to me, this thoughtful look on his face.
"Should I tell him I like him?" he asked after a while and I nodded. "What if he thinks it's weird?"
"He won't" I said and he went quiet. "You okay?"
"I don't know how to tell him"
"You're only young, sport. You've got plenty of time to figure how to tell him. Just wait til it feels right to say something" I said, smiling at him when he nodded slightly. "And if you ever need to talk, I'm always here for you. I've been through all this, remember?" I said, laughing and he nodded again, cuddling me in thanks.
Lewis seemed to want to go off then, and I asked him if he wanted me to go with him, but he shook his head slightly.
"I'm gonna go tell him he didn't upset me"
"Okay" I smiled, watching as he scuttled off to find Danny.
Oh Maxxie, what has our boy gotten himself into?