By the time we got back to the house, I was too worn out to even think about doing anything other than sleeping. I bundled the kids into bed before slumping off to my own bed, falling asleep in my suit. I woke up after a little while, seeing Maxxie sat nearby.
“Get your ass over here” I said sleepily and he did as he was told. “I hope you were at the wedding”
"Of course. Me and Cay were both there. He won't admit it but he cried his eyes out" he said and I chuckled. "I did not, on the other hand. I was a big brave boy" he smiled.
“Of course” I said and he grinned. “Not even at your little girl all dressed up?”
"Okay, maybe a little, but Bunny boy, I was watching you because you were in a suit" he laughed.
“So how often do I get to see you in a suit?”
“I’m in a suit now” I laughed.
“Mhm. Know what though?”
“It’d look much better on the floor” he said, grinning when I laughed.
I kissed him, letting him strip me of my suit, before giving myself to him like it was us that’d just gotten married.
Maxxie nuzzled me once we were done. “Fuck, I’ve missed this so much”
“Me too” I said, snuggling up to him.
“I love you”
“I love you too”
“So... this Sarah chick. How’re things with her?” Maxxie said after a while and I did my best to sound like I hadn’t been falling asleep.
“Good, I s’pose. What d’you think of her?”
"She wasn't exactly happy about not being invited. Or about you"
"Looks like it" I said, sighing slightly.
Maxxie kissed my forehead. "Well you can tell her I don't much like her either. You deserve better than that. And what she said to Danny..." he trailed off and I shot him a questioning look, wondering which of the many things she’d said he could mean. "About boys not being allowed to share a bed? What's Danny supposed to think about that?"
"He knows that's not true, though"
"Yeah, I know, but what if he starts doubting it or whatever. He's not the sort of kid that voices his worries too often, y'know?"
"Then I'll just have to make sure to ask him every now and then"
"How're they doing? Do they like Sarah?"
"They seem to"
"And how're they doing at school?"
"Good" I smiled. "Lily's really getting on well with her acting stuff"
"Good to hear" he smiled, snuggling me more. "I worry about you guys y'know"
"Of course I do"
"'Cause I love you guys, stupid" he said and I smiled. "And I'm not around to help out if anything goes bad. That and Cayden insists that watching you 24/7 is unhealthy, so y'know, I gotta check up on you guys sometimes"
I let out a laugh. "Well, we're doing fine"
Maxxie cuddled me tightly and I buried my face in his chest, breathing in his scent.
"D'you think I've made the right choice?" I asked quietly.
"She hits her kid when he misbehaves. I mean, I've only seen her do it once, but y'know"
"Well she's not gonna hit ours, right?"
"I don't think so"
"I can pay her a little visit, if you like?"
“What makes you think she'd listen?"
"These dreams feel pretty real to you, right?" he asked and I nodded. "They're really vivid and stick in your head, don't they? I can scare her enough to listen and it'll stick"
“Think you can scare her into leaving Lewis alone too?"
I felt bad for the kid. No one deserves getting slapped, especially kids that haven’t done anything wrong.
"I'll do my best. No one messes with my Bunny or my kids, though" he said and I laughed. "I mean it. I might be dead, but that doesn't mean shit if anyone hurts you"
“Thank you” I said, nuzzling his chest.
“My gorgeous Bunny” he said, kissing the top of my head.
He let out a yawn, snuggling up to me again. I waited for him to fall asleep, wondering if he’d disappear or not. I watched him for a few minutes, and he seemed to stay put. I sighed, tracing random shapes on his stomach with my finger. Every time I dreamt about him, I missed him that little bit more, but without them... I don’t think I’d have coped as well as I had.
I lay there awake for what felt like an age, just enjoying having Maxxie back, even if it was only for a little while. Until I woke up. I know that must make it sound like I wanted to kill myself or something, but believe me, I’d never put my kids through that. The thought had crossed my mind a few times back in the early days, but the thought of the kids going back into care had always kept me from doing it.
I let out a sigh, pulling the covers around me and cuddling up to Maxxie again, all but lying on top of him. I buried my nose in his chest again, breathing in as much of his scent as I could, falling asleep.