I don’t know what I did, but I obviously did something to make Maxxie appear that night. Eden had kept her head on my shoulder while we watched the movie, and eventually the both of us had fallen asleep. I woke up at some point, my head resting gently on top of hers, and saw Maxxie sat across from us watching us. He flashed me a tiny smile, and I couldn’t quite tell what he was thinking. I mean, if I’d come back from the afterlife to check up on my husband and found him all snuggled up with a woman I’d already had my suspicions about, I’d be pretty pissed off.
“Hey” I said quietly, not wanting to wake Eden up even though I knew it was just a dream.
I didn’t really know what to say, so I did the second best thing and got up to get a drink, being all gentle with Eden as I moved her head so I could stand up. Apparently I didn’t have to mention what was on my mind.
"It's up to you, gorgeous. Do you think you're ready?" Maxxie said and I bit back a sigh.
"I don't know" I said, resting my chin on his shoulder when he hugged my waist. “What do you think?”
That’s something I’d miss if I was with Eden, actually. I’m not saying because she’s a girl that she wouldn’t hug my waist from behind all possessively or anything, but I’d miss having someone stronger than me hugging my waist. I mean, more specifically I’d miss Maxxie’s arms, but just having someone stronger than me holding onto me felt... I don’t know, I just liked it.
Maxxie sighed. "I don't know, Bunny. It's really up to you"
"I know it is, but I don't know what to do. She's my friend and I don't want to fuck that up, but..." I sighed. "I don't know"
"Flirt and see where it goes?"
"Me flirt? I don't even know the meaning of the word" I chuckled and Maxxie giggled.
"Sure you don't"
"Seriously though, I can't flirt"
"Learn from Gayleb"
"Gayleb doesn't flirt, he offers sexual favours"
"Do you think she's interested in me?"
"Probably. She looks pretty into you. Why d'you think I got all silly over you being friends that time?"
"Does she?" I asked, arching an eyebrow a teeny bit and Maxxie giggled again.
"Oh, bless you Hadley. You haven't got a clue" he said and I looked up at him innocently. "She's always been into you, I think”
Maxxie nodded. "It'd be worth a try. And if it doesn't work out, you don't have to fall out. Just be mature, you'll always have a good friend in her”
"Yeah but how do I ask someone out? I've never asked anyone out"
"Ask her to go for a drink with you. Leave the kids with John and just enjoy some time alone with her"
"What if we get to the sex stage? I won't know what the fuck I'm doing"
After all, I’m nearly fucking thirty and I only have sexual experience with one particular gentleman.
"Just let it go at your pace. You'll know when it's right to do what. I'm sure Eden can help in the sex department, though I guess it'd be a lot like topping me"
I hid my face in his neck, whining.
"I can't date a girl" I whined as he played with my hair.
Maxxie chuckled. "Sure you can. Why say you can't?"
"Because I don't know how girls work"
"Like I wasn't already girly enough"
"But girls are sensitive and you have to buy them things and what the fuck are these?" I said, miming boobs on my chest.
"I thought I had boobs" he laughed. "You always told me I did"
"Yeah, but those are real ones" I said, sighing a little when he nodded.
"You'll be fine, Hadley. If you wanna ask her out, just do it"
"Are you okay with it?"
"Of course I am. Even if I wasn't, what can I do about it, eh? It's up to you what you do with your life. As long as you're happy, I am too"
"I'll always love you most" I said, kissing him and mirroring the smile he flashed me.
"I love you, Hadley. You deserve to be happy"
"I love you too"
"Now you go out there and be happy for me, yeah?"
“Thank you” he said, kissing my forehead.
I glanced back at the couch, putting a blanket over Eden before dragging Maxxie to the bedroom and snuggling up to him. I know I was gonna ask Eden out, but I wanted one last snuggle with my husband before I started trying to move on.