Things carried on like that with Eden helping me out wherever she could for a few weeks, but the Maxxie dreams weren’t regular and they were never as frequent as I’d like. I dreamt of him maybe once or twice a month. Well, I dreamt of him every night, but only one or two of those felt as real as the first one, and in every one he was exactly as I remembered him; tall, toned and with a healthy glow to him. I stopped taking my iron pills, wondering if maybe that had something to do with it, but all it did was make me lethargic and irritable, much to Eden’s disappointment. And needless to say, not taking my iron pills did nothing towards making those oh so realistic dreams any more frequent, which fucking sucked.
Until that night...
"You haven't been taking your pills" I heard Maxxie say accusingly.
"I haven't" I said, leaning against the breakfast bar. I’d fallen asleep in bed, but I’d gotten up and wandered about once I’d started dreaming.
"You should start taking them again" he said, standing in the kitchen holding them.
"'Cause you get all tired and moody when you don't have them and you need to be in good spirits for the kids"
"They've got Eden now as well"
"They still need you to be there for them"
"I am there for them"
He sighed a little, hugging my waist. "I know, but you shouldn't make things harder on yourself"
"Thought it might help me see you" I shrugged.
"No, gorgeous. You need to take the pills. I'm always here for you, you don't need to fuck your body up" he said, cuddling me tightly.
I sighed. "I miss you"
"I miss you too" he said, kissing the top of my head.
"I don't know what to do without you"
"Learn from the English" he said with a slight laugh. "Just keep calm and carry on. Everyone's there for you, Bunny boy, you just need to let them help you"
"I know, but I don't want to be a burden or anything. I'm s'posed to be good at coping"
"You've never had to deal with anything like this before. No one will blame you if you need help coping. Don't be afraid to ask" he said, but I didn’t say anything. "As much as I'd love you to come be with me again, you have to stay alive"
"I love you. And I know you can pull through. You'll find someone else and move on" he smiled and I shook my head, not believing him in the slightest. I looked up as I felt him playing with my hair, earning myself a kiss on the forehead. “You will. I promise”
"I won't. You mean everything to me" I said, sniffling as he cuddled me closer.
"I'm so sorry, Hadley" he said, pressing his forehead to mine.
"S'not your fault"
"I'll be here as long as it takes for you to move on, gorgeous"
"Yeah, but you're notherehere" I sniffled as he played with my hair.
"Best I can do, gorgeous" he said and I sighed.
His lips met mine in a slow kiss, his forehead resting against mine again once our lips parted. I shuffled off to the bedroom, flopping down on the bed and smiling as I felt Maxxie’s familiar weight on top of me.
"I love you so much" he said.
"I love you too"
"I want to come back to you so bad"
"I want you back" I said sadly.
"I'll wait for you" he said, snuggling up to me.
"You'll be waiting a long time" I said, laughing faintly.
"Good" he smiled, kissing me as I played with his hair. "You'll be with me again one day. I can wait" he said, nuzzling my nose.
I let out the tiniest of chuckles. "But if I find someone else like you said I will, then you'll have to fight over me"
I kissed him again, melting into him as he kissed back, slipping his tongue into my mouth. He pinned my hands above my head, still kissing me, and undressed me slowly. I couldn’t help but shiver a little at the sudden change in temperature, and I’d be lying if I said I didn’t enjoy it as he teased every inch of me. I moaned ever so slightly as he stretched me, moaning even more as he went down on me, fingering me slowly. After five months of nothing even remotely sexual, a sex dream felt fucking realistic. I gripped his hair as he sucked, eventually giving in and lubing up.
The two of us were snuggled up against each other, sharing body heat. I’d jizzed embarrassingly early, given my lack of sex lately, but Maxxie didn’t seem to care. I tilted my head sleepily as Maxxie trailed kisses along my neck.
"Go to sleep, gorgeous. Have some rest, and take your pills in the morning" he said, playing with my hair.
"Dun wanna go to sleep"
"You won't be here when I wake up"
Maxxie put his hand on my chest, right over my heart. "It's mushy, but I'm here, aren't I?"
I nodded and he cuddled me tighter.
"I hate waking up alone" I said, snuggling up to him.
"So do I. But we're only going to be apart for a while"
"Not long, gorgeous" he said, kissing the top of my head and I let out a sniffle. “Don’t cry” he said, sounding upset.
"Can't help it" I said, sniffling again.
He kissed my cheek, playing with my hair and I felt a tear roll over my cheek.
"I'm sorry. Don't cry bunny"
I sniffled again, trying not to cry and he squished me against him. I buried my face in his chest, breathing in his familiar scent and letting myself cry because fuck it, it was my dream and I’d cry if I wanted to. Maxxie just kept holding me, not saying anything, and I eventually cried myself to sleep.