I stepped outside and I saw Kel in the car with Byron and Dewayne. They were bumping Twista's Wetter. I opened my mouth and nothing came out. I commanded my body to move towards them and it froze with fear. I couldn't break concentration. I needed Kel to see me but they drove off.
I stood there with crowds of people under the influence around me, feeling like the loneliness person in the world. I stood there for another ten minutes processing my surroundings and thoughts.
I started walking home from the club and kept my thought to myself. The streets were still active and vibrant. I took a few minutes to enjoy the beautiful of the moment; my rendition of slowing time down to smell the roses.
I called my cousin Keke for a ride as I turned into small park. The stars above were marvelous and bright. I traced out with my foot a pink chalk line of a drawing of some child's name.
I looked down at my phone contemplating if I should call Kel.
I sat on the wooden swing as I was alone with my thoughts, ego and my breaths.
"Excuse me, is this seat taken?"
I didn't lift my head, "yes, it's taken."
I looked up and lined up with his smooth cognac brown eyes.
"Ha, are you supposed to be fucking Atlanta right now?"
Kel smiled, "I can't fuck Atlanta if I all I think about is Philadelphia and my family with you."
Kel sat next to me and I put my head on his shoulder. I sat with relief as I felt his body exhale. I could feel his body's warmth and the music playing in his earphones that were hanging from his shirt. He was listening to Teedra Moses' Take Me."
I muttered, "Are you upset with me? You did catch me fucking someone else."
Kel smirked, "honestly..." He paused, "Nope."
I continued to lay on his shoulder and he slid his fingertips through mine and finished:
"I needed to see you with someone else. I'm sorry that I brought you pain with this mess."
I looked down and saw a lighting bug sitting on my shoe. I responded, "I'm sorry for bringing you down to Atlanta when our relationship could have been jeopardize."
"Can we work on us?"
I knodded in agreement and we sat in silence.
Kel lifted my chin, "thank you for always protecting me and allowing me to be who I am. Thank you for explaining yourself and making me feel like whole. You make me feel whole."
I stood there in his arms and it was perfect. Keke drove up and we got in the car and drove home.