June 11th: 2:02pm
I had a rough morning. I threw up so much and I'm still shocked by my behavior of cheating on Demetreus. Did I ever think it would happen? Of course not! I have cheated on a few girls in my life but I never thought this would happen.
I cleaned myself and did my own home remedy to cure myself of possible alcohol poisoning. I got dressed and got my emotions together.
I opened the door to a cool breeze. I stared at Byron's house as I started to reminisce on the events. I remember every touch from Dewayne.
I walked to the end of the block and caught the bus.
I remember his tongue ring wrapped around my manhood moving in different patterns. The ball glowed in the dark as I remember watching it go up and down. The sound of his salva against his lips against my dick gives me chills just thinking about it.
The bus ride was bumpy as Aaliyah's 4 page letter played throughout my thoughts. I really fucked up.
I took another swig of water as I realized a young female was watching me.
She smiled and it made me feel dirty. I turned to the window and looked at Atlanta.
I looked down and my mother was calling again. I picked up and heard the voice of my son. He relaxed me and my anxieties mellowed out. I've missed him and he remains to be my heart.
"Daddy, you sound sad."
"Jaiden, daddy wants you to be awesome and wants you to try hard. But if you fall short, it's okay sometimes. We don't mean to hurt our family or not meet up to expectations."
"I don't understand."
"Don't worry about it. Just know that I love you with all my heart."
"I love you too, pops."
I hung up the phone with him and rubbed my eyes.
I whispered to myself, "yo, I really cheated on him. I'm going to lose this."
I felt my eyes water as I looked down at my phone. I rang the bell and the bus let me off.
"AID Atlanta, 1605 Peachtree St in the Northeast. I'm here."
I took a deep breath and walked in. The brownstone was gorgeous and the staff was very friendly. I walked up to the receptionist.
"Hello, welcome to AID Atlanta, how can we assist you today?"
"I had unprotective sex last night and I'm afraid."
The first time I couldn't be strong for myself. I couldn't fake my feelings but I spilled the truth.
Her facial expression became very concerned.
"Don't be afraid, we will take care of you."
My chest tensed up with anxiety as I felt so alone and scared. She passed me a clipboard and asked me to fill them out. Even as a nurse, I didn't have a grip on my emotions.
I took a deep breath as my eyes started to water.
"I really messed up."